Feb. 15th, 2009

behindthec: (pancakes!)
lurker open house post 2009.  through epic calculation and careful monitoring, it has come to my attention that i have an endless amount of lurkers.  don't ask me how i know; i just do.

come out?  say hi?  don't think i don't see you votin' in mah pollz and leavin' me anonymous comments left and right. XD  you're allowed to friend me, i won't bite.  and i won't think you're a loser for following me this long without introducing yourself.  some of my best friends on here are ex-lurkers.

this also doubles as my february birthday post.  there are a shit ton of you, so happy happy day to you all, but i'll just do the few i'm closest to or we'll be here all day.


[livejournal.com profile] notyourshot -- you will keep me waiting for porn until i am shriveled and decrepit, i'm sure, but i'll wait forever for you. ;)

[livejournal.com profile] monamour_x -- nothing needs to be said.  you are my brenny bear, and i am your ryan.  and i have missed you the last few days and helen and i are epically worried, so jesus, text me already.

[livejournal.com profile] minus_four -- i wish i could spend your bday with you, sitting around together on our laptops and laughing at badfic. ♥

[livejournal.com profile] falling_words -- lolz ur old nao too.  thanks for being the spencer to my impossible ryan and sticking around with me.  love you.

also i totally forgot bill beckett's birthday so here, have some bill beckett.  who is so fucking awesome that he put up a recording of the show i was at, and i can hear my friend charlie yelling on all the tracks. <3!

behindthec: (emo pride)
i'm so tired of fandom right now.  i really need a break.  a long break.  but it's part of me, the stupid fucker.

i don't want to talk about the drama (this, for those who asked via twitter), because stuff like that just pisses me off and takes away from why i love fandom in the first place.

whenever something like this happens, i just have to tell myself, it's the characters we love.  because really, it is.  RPF fandom is such a mess, ugh.  because of the reality aspect, there is a lack of vital limits, so when one spontaneously imposes itself like this, everything implodes.  to me, at least.

promise me not one of you will mention a word of it in the comments.  i so, so, so do not want to talk about it, at all.  help me remember why i love fandom.  write a line of schmoop or porn.  post a pic that makes me forget that half of what we love about these boys is probably a lie.  help me remember fandom is what we make of it, and anything can be as real to us as we need it, as long as we believe it.  i am really proud of how colossally cheesy i managed to make that sound, too. XD

i'll start.


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