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i find it interesting, retroactively, that in chapter 7 when ryan says "pianissimo" sounds like it would mean "i love you" or "i trust you"... that's not just colin searching for a way to make the scene meaningful. (...i suppose it was, at the time, but that's neither here nor there.) i realize that the reason i even thought of that is because italian (all musical terms are italian) comes from latin, and in latin, the first-person present tense verb almost always ends in "o". for instance, "ambulo" means "i walk." if ryan knew anything about latin (which he does in pccf canon, because, HOT), his mind would automatically (or subconsciously, like mine) make that association, that "pianissimo" sounds like it means, "i [something]." like, perhaps, "i trust."

that flashback just earned so many cool points for me. XD

[livejournal.com profile] redorchids and i are working hard to bring you chapter 8. she signed on for another sex scene, a really angsty one, and it's kind of breathtaking. (she stole a snippet from pwf as a dream sequence, so when you see it, don't think Colin's Ego OMG, 'cause it wasn't my idea. ;) i do love how it weaves into the scene, though.) we are also working on a pccf "director's cut" filled with random snippets/AU scenes she's written for the fic, and also a VIDEO, more like a trailer for the fic, which will come after it's finished. so, so fucking excited for that. she made this one for her bbb (peterick/CSI AU) and it's awesome.

here, have a teaser. this one's hers, and just, ngh.

They lie there, breathing together, hiding from the world while their bodies cool and the sounds from outside start to filter back in through the open window. Brendon figures he should pull out, roll away, be angry with Ryan for pushing him into this or with himself for nodding along—cry, yell—something; anything other than just curling himself tighter around the body next to him and burying his face against the dark hair. It doesn't make sense for him to cling to Ryan—not when it's Ryan that's making him break—but thinking of letting go is worse, so Brendon clings. His body starts to shake, so he squeezes harder, the emotional equivalent of trying to swim in quicksand and probably just as futile, but it's what he's got, so he'll take it. And when he closes his eyes and breathes in the smell of Ryan—of them, and this, skin mingling together—then at least he knows that it wasn't all a dream.

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Date: 2009-04-14 01:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kaytvengeance.livejournal.com
Oh Christ. Please tell me the whole chapter isn't going to be like that snippet or I shall be a blubbing mess the whole way through. Just that snippet almost set me off (is a sap).

I hate when fics get to this point. Well I don't, but I do. You know when it's almost the end, and you're dying to know what happens but at the same time, you don't want it to finish. But I am still stupidly excited to see if you fix it (if you don't, I'm sure the hoardes will track you down somehow lol)

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Date: 2009-04-14 01:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
I WILL FIX IT. it's angsty for awhile, but i promise i fix. :)

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Date: 2009-04-14 01:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gothicduckie6.livejournal.com
I hate when Brendon gets sad. and I hate it even more when it's because of Ryan.

oh, and btw, shirtless!Ryan = win. seriouslyyyyyyyyy
I sat here with food halfway to my mouth for about five minutes just staring at the picture.
-goes back to look at it-

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Date: 2009-04-14 01:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
me too. :/

DUDE I KNOW. *GOES BACK TO LOOK ALSO*

UNFFFFFFFFF.

he has a really freakishly nice chest. god.

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Date: 2009-04-14 02:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] panicobracademy.livejournal.com
WHAT SHIRTLESS RYAN?!
WHEREEE?!

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Date: 2009-04-14 01:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] selectivelyurie.livejournal.com
pianissimo! <3333

also just. that snippet :( it's so good yet so sad and i dnw bb brendon to be sad anymore! and her video: ajsdif8op;lkasdjasid;j omg i am making epic grabby hands for a pccf one ♥_♥ and a director's cut? *flails and dies*

but you has to fix brendon first, okies? :(

&you;

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Date: 2009-04-14 01:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
\o/

it really is good. the scene it's from is AMAZING. and i can say that b/c i didn't write it. :D I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE VIDEO OMG.

i fix, no worries!

&you too;

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Date: 2009-04-14 01:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] miarae.livejournal.com
That is one awesome teaser. And omfg video \o/ I am gonna ♥ that so much.

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Date: 2009-04-14 01:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
yeah, the scene she wrote is incredible.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE VID. :D

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Date: 2009-04-14 02:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bunniesontoast.livejournal.com
lol a video? you are a lucky boy. XP

and GUH. ANGST. unf.

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Date: 2009-04-14 02:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alphabetatoast.livejournal.com
So frikkin excited for that video, and all the bonus material. \0/
Gonna be so so good.

if Ryan knew anything about Latin (which he does in pccf canon, because, HOT)
He would he would he would! So hot. I love the way your mind words. latin students ftmfw! ItalyFic, yes. XD
ICU Latin!Ryan! (Currently convincing Sara to write Classics!professor!Ryan AU. *nods*)

the emotional equivalent of trying to swim in quicksand and probably just as futile

I... just.... is.... dead.
FIX THIS.

If the whole chapter is as good as that (of course it will be), then wow. What an ending.

PLUS, Half-derobed Ryan on twitter? MADE OF COMPLETE WIN.
His hair like that, om nom fucking nom.

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Date: 2009-04-14 03:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
me tooooooooooo, omg.

i kind of want a fic about ryan as a latin professor. AND THEN I JUST READ WHAT YOU WROTE ABOUT CLASSICSPROF!RYAN. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS. UNF. anythingprofessor!ryan is fucking hot.

i will fix it, no worries.

half-derobed ryan made my day. jfc. he has such lovely skin. i want to lick it and bite it until he's a whimpering, writhing mess beneath me. *leers at him predatorily*

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Date: 2009-04-14 02:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] panicobracademy.livejournal.com
ooooh that teaser is GORGEOUS.
it made me heart clench <3

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Date: 2009-04-14 03:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
i knowwwwwwww the whole scene is like that, a;lskvjpoaw3ir.

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Date: 2009-04-14 02:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] stereotypeloser.livejournal.com
Wow, I so needed this to cheer me up for at least a few seconds. Love it already.

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Date: 2009-04-14 03:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guilt-lines.livejournal.com
INDULGENT!AUS FTMFW.

Ryan totally ~would know latin lol.

And lovely teaser.



ps. look at my icon. why does pete have to be evil? meep

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Date: 2009-04-14 03:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
FUCK YES. going to post our IM convo later i think lol. need people to tell me to either write it or not write it. :P

WELL HOW IS JON EVIL EITHER?! :PPP at least pete has badass tattoos. XD

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Date: 2009-04-14 04:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gingerrstar.livejournal.com
i look so forward to this.

&hearts

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Date: 2009-04-14 04:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
\o/ :D

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Date: 2009-04-14 04:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] whoyouinvent.livejournal.com
i speak a little italian, too, and i liked the use of pianissimo anyway, as "more softly, gently" - it's a good thing for a safeword to be. italian verbs have that final 'o' ending, too, actually, when self-referential.

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Date: 2009-04-14 04:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
it really is! i forget who originally suggested it but it was a great idea.

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Date: 2009-04-14 04:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] panicmydear.livejournal.com
I CAN'T WAIT. THANK YOU COLIN.

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Date: 2009-04-14 04:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
\o/! :D thank redorchids for that one, though. i can't take credit.

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Date: 2009-04-14 06:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] moony-21.livejournal.com
wow. that rant is beautiful. :) and so well though out. i believe everyone is excited for what you have planned. :D

and whoah. that teaser totally did it's job to harass my mind with thoughts. just [completely agrees with you] ngh...

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Date: 2009-04-14 06:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
thanks!

yeah, the teaser's amazing. i love when she writes for me. :)

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Date: 2009-04-14 06:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] justranda.livejournal.com
*sits in your lap* hi. ^^

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Date: 2009-04-14 06:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] noahatthedisco.livejournal.com
Oh, cool!
i totally didn't know that!
your subconscious is communicating with pccf!Ryan's subconscious...

ANGSTTTTTTTTTT.
hehe...

what did you think of semi-shirtless Ryan this morning? loll

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Date: 2009-04-14 06:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
right??

SEMI-SHIRTLESS RYAN MADE MY MOTHERFUCKING DAY.

he has such a nice chest, NGH.

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Date: 2009-04-14 06:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chicken-cookie.livejournal.com
Not gonna lie, I kind of did a little mental dance of glee at your reference to Leeds United in the subject line. *Amanda Palmer fangirl-ness showing through* :D

*gives you cool points*

Oh, and, hey. Did I mention that redorchids is amazing? 'Cause she totally is. Her writing... just... it's good, okay? Like, really fantastic. (though I am kind of dismayed with her because she wouldn't tell me Brendon's real safeword last night... *grumble*)

*waits impatiently as patiently as possible for chapter 8 and the DIRECTOR'S CUT THING OMGOMGOMG*

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Date: 2009-04-14 07:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
haha, keri has been forcing her music on me. :P

she really is amazing. ...does brendon have a "real" safeword? i was not aware of this, lol. we talked about RYAN having another safeword, but that would probably be in the director's cut...

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Date: 2009-04-14 07:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] o-nyx-o.livejournal.com
It doesn't make sense for him to cling to Ryan—not when it's Ryan that's making him break—but thinking of letting go is worse, so Brendon clings.

</3. Don't cry, Brendon! *snuggles him* That teaser and the promises of vid and director's cut made my horrible day better. Thankyouthankyouthankyou. I agree. Ryan should have more topless (OR NAKED) pics, preferably with Brendon (who is also naked). *imagines them naked together* I read your previous post and I had no words to say so I didn't say anything at all. I'm sorry. I really am. Everybody seemed to have the words to say, I didn't. =[ *OFFERS NAKED!BRENDON&RYAN* Now you can have your way with them! I'll bring the video camera! O.O

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Date: 2009-04-14 07:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
mmmmmmm, ryan should DEFINITELY post more topless/naked pics, preferably with bden. :D

i'm glad it made your day better. \o/

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Date: 2009-04-14 07:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nyquil-love.livejournal.com
I'm such a bad fan sometimes...I don't think I even commented on last chapter, but hopefully you know that I love this story. I can't wait for the final chapter, even though I kind of don't want it to be over. : (

The director's cut sounds fun, as does the video!

And, to agree with everyone else here - half shirtless Ryan is amazing. That is my new desktop background and I've been enjoying it all day long. As if his pretty pink lips and his fingers were not enough, he had to unbutton his shirt as well. \o/

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Date: 2009-04-14 07:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
lol, that's okay! i'm glad you're enjoying it. i don't want it to be over either, but i have so many other projects i want to start...

(though if you want to make it up to me, i'm still waiting for ryan/spencer's mom. XD)

god, fuck, i know. every time someone's mentioned the pic today, i've had to go back and look at it. SO. DELISH.

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Date: 2009-04-14 08:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] starlesscities.livejournal.com
Chapter eight...the end :|
*early withdrawl*

Jfc, you sigohisdukgs.
(and her omg)

I worked on your porn today!
It's about halfway done, lmfao.

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Date: 2009-04-14 08:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
but i have so many exciting projects planned for after this! about to reveal a new idea for a crazy indulgent AU...

YAY PORN, GIVE ME THE HALF NAO!!!

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Date: 2009-04-14 09:02 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] tanisafan.livejournal.com
I just wanted to say that I now have a deep, deep hate for myself for not having the time to read fic these days. Rest assured I WILL get to this eventually, but in the mean time I'm mostly clawing at the table whenever there's a teaser, and wishing and I didn't have a job, lol.

And I think the actual concept of pianissimo meaning 'softest, most gentle' is pretty much freaking perfect on its own, gah! <3

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Date: 2009-04-14 10:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
heee, no problem. ;)

yes, true... i'm just glad now it's even MORE fitting. :P

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Date: 2009-04-14 11:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
YOUR ICONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
ASERAGL;AEJ45POAI POTIAJGAJEHR5JAHESPUHVIAJSHNR,SLGKFGILUIWAH4KAJSNOSGIIWH4KLAWHRASEH OIFHYAWIREHLAKSEJ HIEUGY OIAEH RTOIAWR

*ORGASMS*

*...AND AGAIN*

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Date: 2009-04-15 01:54 am (UTC)
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It doesn't make sense for him to cling to Ryan—not when it's Ryan that's making him break—but thinking of letting go is worse, so Brendon clings.

Oh, god, that's pretty. I am not even a fan of angst, as you've maybe picked up on (NO ONE LIKES A SAD EMMA, OKAY. IT IS JUST FACT) buuuuut I make an exception for your fics. Though I have to take breaks sometimes, because I get all annoyed at the boys for being sad and... idk, I'm weird. BUT. BUT that is a nice snippet, kudos to [livejournal.com profile] redorchids. It believe it, which almost never happens in a) amateur writing (hell, or published shitty writing. like twilight. fuck that book) or b) bandfic (which is the same thing, really, but it deserves a distinction. there's plenty of bandfic that's as good as novels that I don't totally believe)

SO MANY PARENTHESIS.

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Date: 2009-04-15 02:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com
heeee, isn't she awesome? the whole scene is like that; it's amazing. WE SHALL CONVERT YOU TO ANGSTISM. XD

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