behindthec: (piano)
Title: Scratch My Phosphorus Skin [1/1]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan; slight GSF vibe
Rating: R for drug use
Words: ~1,320
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Summary: They all did it, once upon a time (last time; no fairy tales ever), side by side, warm skin brushing as they passed the joints back and forth.
Notes: This is a flashback-y snapshot from the PCCF 'verse, inspired by a passage from the final chapter, but you don't have to read the fic to understand this. Couldn't get this out of my head once [livejournal.com profile] selectivelyurie brought it up in the Q&A. Set a few days before the infamous kiss. If the drugs bother you, know that in my world they were only ever this reckless at the cabin. ;) This is abstract and bizarre and written in the middle of the night and has no real meaning, so watch for pointlessness. Title from the scrapped cabin songs.

Ryan's skin in moonlight is a natural A minor scale. )

behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab 
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Words: ~93,000
Summary:  Once upon a time, Panic went to a cabin in the mountains to write an album they never made. One night there, something happened that Ryan tried to forget. Two years later, he still hasn't.
Notes: Post-cabin cabin fic.  I realize how morbid my summary sounds, like he got attacked by a rapist or something.  I promise this'll make you smile lots with minimal angst: just boys being their stupid selves.  I've never written epic straight-up Brendon/Ryan, so this is a treat. Epic thanks to [livejournal.com profile] redorchids for sharing my brain/soul contributing several scenes, endlessly brainstorming the last few chapters with me, and creating the official trailer.
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Brendon thinks maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers,
and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together.


Chapter 1      |    Chapter 2     |     Chapter 3     |     Chapter 4

Chapter 5     |    Chapter 6     |     Chapter 7     |     Chapter 8


behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place [8/8]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab and [livejournal.com profile] redorchids
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Dedication: [livejournal.com profile] redorchids, obviously. Several scenes, half the outline, shameless PWF refs, and all original lyrics are hers, as well as the amazing vid she made for this fic, linked at the end. Thanks also to [livejournal.com profile] unluckykitty for the YouTube screenshot photo, and [livejournal.com profile] j_plash for the bountiful flesh-horn epic badfic. <3
Summary: Maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers, and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together.
Notes: Scene intro lyrics are from Panic, Snow Patrol, Empires, and The Killers. Thanks to everyone for all your support/feedback. I learned a lot during this, but the concept of the story has been very simple. It's about love, and the tough decision we must make regarding whether it's enough, whether it will prevail in the end. I've wondered many times throughout the course of writing this, and for awhile, lost faith. I'll let you judge for yourself where I ended up. Thanks for joining me on this journey.

Please visit the master post for previous chapters, notes, track listing, etc.

It's not a series of moments, just one. )

behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place [7/8]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Dedication: [livejournal.com profile] siubhlach, [livejournal.com profile] taraangelx, [livejournal.com profile] takkatakkatakka; a very special thanks to [livejournal.com profile] redorchids, who co-wrote the last sex scene with me when I was ready to give up on this damn fic altogether. The lyrics and most of the good ideas in here are hers as well.
Summary: Maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers, and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together.
Notes: I hope you guys enjoy these last two chapters because I'm not going to be writing anything for awhile. I'm fucking wiped out. Anyway, Brendon's fascination with portable toilets belongs to me and me alone. For those doubting the boys' basketball skills, I suggest taking a look at this, and also their clothes in the drunken jailbait sleepover pics.

Please visit the master post for previous chapters, notes, track listing, etc.

It's official: there is only one thing in the world better than sex. )

REC ALERT.

Apr. 5th, 2009 03:08 pm
behindthec: (ryden.)
like red alert, only, not, ha ha, okay.

so, my crush flirt buddy self-proclaimed soulmate lovely friend, [livejournal.com profile] redorchids, finally convinced me to give up my entire sunday morning/afternoon (i don't think it was phrased quite like this, but that's what it took) and read this fic she wrote a few months ago. apparently i am a colossal idiot, because this fic is possibly the best thing i've ever read in bandom. yeah. i said it. definitely in my top 3-5, whatever. this one will stay with me after all others have faded. no way you can read this and not love it. the intense creativity she employs, the way she weaves panic's lyrics into it (you'll never look at any of their songs the same), the simple beauty of the writing itself; it's all stunning. some of you have complimented my use of metaphor; my stuff is elementary school drivel compared what she does in this, srsly. you will never forget this fic. also it's got some of the hottest sex i've ever read in my life. there, that perked up your ears, didn't it. :P

here it is. read the prequel/prologue first. and you have to go down every single path because they are all incredible. there. if i plug the fic any harder i'll... insert boisecks/buttplug joke here.

also, [livejournal.com profile] moku_youbi is possibly my favourite person in the world as well, simply for this. OH GOD. i don't deserve you guys.

i motherfucking love my flist.

that said, i am now going to do something i never do and put on my tin hat, so for those of you who have been distressed by our fandom of late...

a slightly obsessive theory regarding the current state of panic: ryden edition. )

p.s. chapter 7 is about halfway done (there is a chance, a chance, i'll have to split it into two chapters but i really don't want to; we'll see; it's just so long already); hopefully will have it up by thursday as usual.

behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place [6/8]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Dedication: Everyone who brainstormed with me here; everyone who's been supportive lately (you know who you are, writin' me fic and shit ♥); [livejournal.com profile] ivesia19 for this; and above all, [livejournal.com profile] minus_four for her honesty and for letting me bitch about this forever. (AND FOR RILONX.)
Summary: Maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers, and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together.
Notes: The soundtrack's key for this one, though the tracks are linked in-text, too. Lyrics belong to Radiohead. For the record, I wrote my scene before this was posted. I still hate parts of this (they're total disgusting girls; they'll get their testosterone back next chapter), but I hope it was worth the wait.

Please visit the master post for previous chapters, notes, track listing, etc.

When Brendon wakes up, he's pretty sure he's dead. )

mrph.

Mar. 25th, 2009 06:47 am
behindthec: (emo pride)
so i guess i've been typing too much lately b/c my fingers are killing me (hence not responding to your emails).  plus i have to write up an entire silent auction guide at work by friday, including snazzy, witty descriptions/titles for 114+ items.  F.  M.  L.

anyway, so i've been writing chapter 6 on paper, which is obviously going... slowly, but you'll be happy to know it's over half done.  we'll see how i'm feeling later, but i've got a ton to do at work this week, obv.  i want to say it'll be up tomorrow but i can't promise.

won't be answering comments here, for obvious reasons, but, leave some love, or porn drabbles, if you feel like it.  i'll read and smile big.

<3 love you guys.  here, have a happy picture (click to enlarge).  his blurry smiley little face, you guys. ♥_♥




behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place [5/8]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Dedication: [livejournal.com profile] alphabetatoast for cello!fic; [livejournal.com profile] redorchids for the beautiful lyrics (more to come); [livejournal.com profile] livinglifeloud and [livejournal.com profile] stereotypeloser for nitpicking the French with me.
Summary: Maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers, and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together. Once upon a time, Panic went to a cabin in the mountains to write an album they never made. One night there, something happened that Ryan tried to forget. Two years later, he still hasn't.
Notes: Hey, try to guess which Traumatizing Sex Tale was stolen from Colin's real life! Anyway, hold your patience a little longer. Chapter 6 is... something-er. By the way, this now exists.

Please visit the master post for previous chapters, notes, track listing, etc.

Maybe he's going crazy. Ryan always said he would. )

behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place [4/8]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Dedication: [livejournal.com profile] bunniesontoast for cello lessons, [livejournal.com profile] the_randomist for Spencer's mom, and everyone who ~contributed. ;)
Summary: Maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers, and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together. Once upon a time, Panic went to a cabin in the mountains to write an album they never made. One night there, something happened that Ryan tried to forget. Two years later, he still hasn't.
Notes: This chapter is just made of eighteen kinds of ridiculous; I struggled constantly, and I still think it's way too indulgent; I felt like I kept losing focus from the greater picture; but I suspect you'll enjoy it anyway (and in my defense, they are drunk as all fuck). The badfic featured here was written graciously by these lovely people. Other refs are linked in the text. You'll definitely want to visit the soundtrack for this one. P.S. This now exists. Oh, lord.

Please visit the master post for previous chapters, notes, track listing, etc.

Am I in love with Brendon? )

behindthec: (piano)
Ryan blinks, like the words bring him down from some elevated state, and he drags his eyes from the instrument up to Brendon's, absently shaking his head. "I haven't seen you play in years."

Brendon smiles. "That's 'cause I haven't played in years. Wasn't it obvious?"

Ryan just shakes his head again, silent, lips still parted, but there's nothing in his bright, wide eyes to suggest he's anything less than fully conscious, and Brendon finds himself blushing, as if caught in some unknown act.

"I want you to teach me," Ryan announces.

 
we've got a big event this week at work so idk if i'll have time to finish/post by thursday, but we'll see.  also i made a really bad cover of "after the last midtown show," the end.
 
behindthec: (pancakes!)
re: the last post: dear lord. you guys, that made my WEEK. i think [livejournal.com profile] justhush said it best via twitter: "i didn't know i needed bad spyro porn in my life until THIS MOMENT." word. on the other hand, i think you all ruined ryan/spencer for me forever.

now, on the other end of the spectrum: please link me to the hottest, most beautifully written ryden porn you've ever read. and preferably, if it's long, copy/paste your favourite paragraph or two.

on a totally unrelated note, an apology. )

behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place [3/8]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Dedication: [livejournal.com profile] stereotypeloser
Summary: Maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers, and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together. Once upon a time, Panic went to a cabin in the mountains to write an album they never made. One night there, something happened that Ryan tried to forget. Two years later, he still hasn't.
Notes: The boys' quotes come from here, but there are whole books about it if you're interested. And I vetoed the poll results; sorry. I should've explained the scene in question is meant to be sexy; I kinda forgot that when I was thinking up other songs. But I think it worked. P.S. Everyone wave hi to Ryro; he's reading this fic.

Please visit the master post for previous chapters, notes, track listing, etc.

Something carries Brendon to the kitchen, but it's not his feet. )

behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place [2/8]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Dedication: [livejournal.com profile] j_plash for finding the interview for me originally, [livejournal.com profile] selectivelyurie for finding it again because I'm lazy, [livejournal.com profile] alphabetatoast for helping me pick a song, and [livejournal.com profile] redorchids, just 'cause. :)
Summary: Maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers, and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together. Once upon a time, Panic went to a cabin in the mountains to write an album they never made. One night there, something happened that Ryan tried to forget. Two years later, he still hasn't.
Notes: Thanks for the overwhelming response to chapter 1. ♥ I realized after the fact that I subconsciously modeled "town" after my city's own historic square, if you want a visual; and some pics I took myself. And please ignore Brendon's philistine opinion on the CD referenced; it's gorgeous. Also, this may prove helpful.

Please visit the master post for previous chapters, notes, track listing, etc.

When you look back on something that changed your world... )

behindthec: (ryden.)
Title: Back To The Place [1/8]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lolab 
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Dedication: [livejournal.com profile] livinglifeloud, for letting me throw this at her piece by piece, for actually telling me when a line sucked, and for helping me with the most obstinate passage I've ever attempted to write. She has earned my firstborn, or something. Also, [livejournal.com profile] minus_four, because today is her birthday. :D Go give her orgasms love.
Summary: Maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers, and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together.  Once upon a time, Panic went to a cabin in the mountains to write an album they never made. One night there, something happened that Ryan tried to forget. Two years later, he still hasn't.
Notes: Please visit the master post. Also, the interview I reference is indeed real, but I can't remember where it's from.

Some people say a single moment can change your life. Some people, but not Brendon. )

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