Back To The Place [master post] | Brendon/Ryan | NC-17

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Title: Back To The Place
Author: lolab 
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Words: ~93,000
Summary:  Once upon a time, Panic went to a cabin in the mountains to write an album they never made. One night there, something happened that Ryan tried to forget. Two years later, he still hasn't.
Notes: Post-cabin cabin fic.  I realize how morbid my summary sounds, like he got attacked by a rapist or something.  I promise this'll make you smile lots with minimal angst: just boys being their stupid selves.  I've never written epic straight-up Brendon/Ryan, so this is a treat. Epic thanks to redorchids for sharing my brain/soul contributing several scenes, endlessly brainstorming the last few chapters with me, and creating the official trailer.

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Brendon thinks maybe that's what makes life interesting, the collision of endless questions and answers,
and those precious moments of triumph when we can match the right ones together.

Chapter 1      |    Chapter 2     |     Chapter 3     |     Chapter 4

Chapter 5     |    Chapter 6     |     Chapter 7     |     Chapter 8

Track Listing (in no order):

- Straight Lines - Silverchair
- Layla (acoustic) - Eric Clapton
- Cello Suite No. 1 (Prelude) - Bach
- Piano Concerto No. 1 (Romance Larghetto) - Chopin
- La Campanella - Liszt
- Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen
- Across The Universe - The Beatles
- All These Things That I've Done - The Killers
- All The Small Things - Blink 182
- Bounce - The Cab
- Goodbye Yellow Brick Road - Elton John
- Canon in D - Pachelbel
- Stop Whispering - Radiohead

Resources:

- A primer of sorts on chakra meditation.
- A list/diagram of common yoga postures.
- Wikipedia's Zen primer.
- One of the most practical, easy to read books on Zen meditation. It's fantastic, even out of the context of this story.
- My city's own historic square (and pics I took myself), after which I subconsciously modeled "town" in this fic.
- Courtesy of yrclndstnlvr, a List of Evidence that Ryan's stalking this fic. :P
- A vague approximation of the cabin floorplan.
- Chapter 8 artwork by camatie.
- The fic's Q&A post.
- A tiny prequel (best if read after the fic, IMO).

Acknowledgments:

Thanks to all who've helped/inspired/amused me in some way: livinglifeloud, selectivelyurie, alphabetatoast, j_plash, redorchids, bunniesontoast, ivesia19, the_randomist, minus_four, takkatakkatakka.