behindthec: (piano)
Colin ([personal profile] behindthec) wrote2009-04-14 09:16 am

who needs love when there's southern comfort.

i find it interesting, retroactively, that in chapter 7 when ryan says "pianissimo" sounds like it would mean "i love you" or "i trust you"... that's not just colin searching for a way to make the scene meaningful. (...i suppose it was, at the time, but that's neither here nor there.) i realize that the reason i even thought of that is because italian (all musical terms are italian) comes from latin, and in latin, the first-person present tense verb almost always ends in "o". for instance, "ambulo" means "i walk." if ryan knew anything about latin (which he does in pccf canon, because, HOT), his mind would automatically (or subconsciously, like mine) make that association, that "pianissimo" sounds like it means, "i [something]." like, perhaps, "i trust."

that flashback just earned so many cool points for me. XD

[livejournal.com profile] redorchids and i are working hard to bring you chapter 8. she signed on for another sex scene, a really angsty one, and it's kind of breathtaking. (she stole a snippet from pwf as a dream sequence, so when you see it, don't think Colin's Ego OMG, 'cause it wasn't my idea. ;) i do love how it weaves into the scene, though.) we are also working on a pccf "director's cut" filled with random snippets/AU scenes she's written for the fic, and also a VIDEO, more like a trailer for the fic, which will come after it's finished. so, so fucking excited for that. she made this one for her bbb (peterick/CSI AU) and it's awesome.

here, have a teaser. this one's hers, and just, ngh.

They lie there, breathing together, hiding from the world while their bodies cool and the sounds from outside start to filter back in through the open window. Brendon figures he should pull out, roll away, be angry with Ryan for pushing him into this or with himself for nodding along—cry, yell—something; anything other than just curling himself tighter around the body next to him and burying his face against the dark hair. It doesn't make sense for him to cling to Ryan—not when it's Ryan that's making him break—but thinking of letting go is worse, so Brendon clings. His body starts to shake, so he squeezes harder, the emotional equivalent of trying to swim in quicksand and probably just as futile, but it's what he's got, so he'll take it. And when he closes his eyes and breathes in the smell of Ryan—of them, and this, skin mingling together—then at least he knows that it wasn't all a dream.

[identity profile] whoyouinvent.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 04:08 pm (UTC)(link)
i speak a little italian, too, and i liked the use of pianissimo anyway, as "more softly, gently" - it's a good thing for a safeword to be. italian verbs have that final 'o' ending, too, actually, when self-referential.

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
it really is! i forget who originally suggested it but it was a great idea.

[identity profile] panicmydear.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 04:29 pm (UTC)(link)
I CAN'T WAIT. THANK YOU COLIN.

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 04:35 pm (UTC)(link)
\o/! :D thank redorchids for that one, though. i can't take credit.

[identity profile] moony-21.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
wow. that rant is beautiful. :) and so well though out. i believe everyone is excited for what you have planned. :D

and whoah. that teaser totally did it's job to harass my mind with thoughts. just [completely agrees with you] ngh...

[identity profile] justranda.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
*sits in your lap* hi. ^^

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:30 pm (UTC)(link)
thanks!

yeah, the teaser's amazing. i love when she writes for me. :)

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:30 pm (UTC)(link)
HAI.

<33333333

[identity profile] justranda.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
<33333

i think that just made my day.

[identity profile] noahatthedisco.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, cool!
i totally didn't know that!
your subconscious is communicating with pccf!Ryan's subconscious...

ANGSTTTTTTTTTT.
hehe...

what did you think of semi-shirtless Ryan this morning? loll

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:56 pm (UTC)(link)
right??

SEMI-SHIRTLESS RYAN MADE MY MOTHERFUCKING DAY.

he has such a nice chest, NGH.

[identity profile] chicken-cookie.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Not gonna lie, I kind of did a little mental dance of glee at your reference to Leeds United in the subject line. *Amanda Palmer fangirl-ness showing through* :D

*gives you cool points*

Oh, and, hey. Did I mention that redorchids is amazing? 'Cause she totally is. Her writing... just... it's good, okay? Like, really fantastic. (though I am kind of dismayed with her because she wouldn't tell me Brendon's real safeword last night... *grumble*)

*waits impatiently as patiently as possible for chapter 8 and the DIRECTOR'S CUT THING OMGOMGOMG*

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:08 pm (UTC)(link)
haha, keri has been forcing her music on me. :P

she really is amazing. ...does brendon have a "real" safeword? i was not aware of this, lol. we talked about RYAN having another safeword, but that would probably be in the director's cut...

[identity profile] o-nyx-o.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:15 pm (UTC)(link)
It doesn't make sense for him to cling to Ryan—not when it's Ryan that's making him break—but thinking of letting go is worse, so Brendon clings.

</3. Don't cry, Brendon! *snuggles him* That teaser and the promises of vid and director's cut made my horrible day better. Thankyouthankyouthankyou. I agree. Ryan should have more topless (OR NAKED) pics, preferably with Brendon (who is also naked). *imagines them naked together* I read your previous post and I had no words to say so I didn't say anything at all. I'm sorry. I really am. Everybody seemed to have the words to say, I didn't. =[ *OFFERS NAKED!BRENDON&RYAN* Now you can have your way with them! I'll bring the video camera! O.O

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
mmmmmmm, ryan should DEFINITELY post more topless/naked pics, preferably with bden. :D

i'm glad it made your day better. \o/

[identity profile] nyquil-love.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:34 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm such a bad fan sometimes...I don't think I even commented on last chapter, but hopefully you know that I love this story. I can't wait for the final chapter, even though I kind of don't want it to be over. : (

The director's cut sounds fun, as does the video!

And, to agree with everyone else here - half shirtless Ryan is amazing. That is my new desktop background and I've been enjoying it all day long. As if his pretty pink lips and his fingers were not enough, he had to unbutton his shirt as well. \o/

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:40 pm (UTC)(link)
lol, that's okay! i'm glad you're enjoying it. i don't want it to be over either, but i have so many other projects i want to start...

(though if you want to make it up to me, i'm still waiting for ryan/spencer's mom. XD)

god, fuck, i know. every time someone's mentioned the pic today, i've had to go back and look at it. SO. DELISH.

[identity profile] chicken-cookie.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I was pretty sure it was Brendon, though I might've mixed them up. My mom was kind of ~lurking when I was talking to her, and I was partially concentrated on my dear mother, y'know, not seeing the computer screen. (She's come to recognize white text on a black background as "oh, she's not doing her homework. Must go in there and yell at her.") :/

Thank you, Keri. :D

[identity profile] nyquil-love.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I know, I know. Ryan and Spencer's mom!
I told myself that I was going to take a break from writing my BBB fic to just write some pointless sex this week. Perhaps the sex will take place between Ryan and Spencer's mom.
And perhaps Spencer's mom will unbutton Ryan's shirt in the fic. lol

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:47 pm (UTC)(link)
AWESOME. DO IT. i'd be so happy! \o/

...i am really okay with the unbuttoning. yes.

[identity profile] guilt-lines.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
haha, should I have said DON'T POST THIS ON THE BLOG? :PPP

and WRITE IT.

and. well. yes. idk what I was thinking tbh. it's just wrong.I mean:

Photobucket

Yep. evil, evil, man XP

[identity profile] lolab.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
YES. jesus fucking fuck, i miss phantom planet. :'(

L;ASEJKPFOIJAPOI EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE JONWALKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he has such kind eyes. *happy sigh*

[identity profile] guilt-lines.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
yeah :'( I sorry.

I knowwwwwwww. JON \o/!!!

and YES. KIND EYES LIKE A PRISON GUARD WHO WOULD LOOK THE OTHER WAY WHILE GABE AND WILLIAM HAVE DEEP CONVERSATIONS AND THEN SEXI TIEMS.

*is happy also*

[identity profile] guilt-lines.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
ps. I love how illogical!fic sudden becomes a lot more logical just bc JWalk is teh awesome and magic :D

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