lol maybe Ryan draws Brendon how he imagines he looks naked in his SUPER SEKRIT JOURNAL OF SEKRTITTY ARTISTY TINGZ late at night and then blushes and smudges it a bit so it looks less innapropriate. and then he (tentatively) shows it to Brendon the next day and Brendon's all, "Hey wow you drew me, why is my crotch all weird and blurred?"
And Ryan says it's like an artistic device to show the hazy ethereal beauty of his enthralling desire for Brendon or something similarly wordy and Brendon's all like, "Okay bb, well next time you should draw my cock."
And Ryan faints.

sorry, sorry, I'll stop ruining your historical angst with my low-brow humour.