sperm: it flies.

[behindthec]

re: the last post: dear lord. you guys, that made my WEEK. i think justhush said it best via twitter: "i didn't know i needed bad spyro porn in my life until THIS MOMENT." word. on the other hand, i think you all ruined ryan/spencer for me forever.

now, on the other end of the spectrum: please link me to the hottest, most beautifully written ryden porn you've ever read. and preferably, if it's long, copy/paste your favourite paragraph or two.

on a totally unrelated note, i've come to realize that what i wrote a couple posts ago about my old writing being "mediocre" may have offended some people. and for that, i am truly sorry. i didn't mean anything by it, other than my writing has changed so much since that time, and i'd rather just look forward and keep improving rather than writing a sequel to something that really doesn't accurately reflect me as a writer anymore. i didn't mean it to sound egotistical or snooty, but it probably did. i realize we are all different levels here as writers, always evolving, and we're all working to improve constantly, so i guess let's just stay focused on that. i certainly did not mean to make anyone feel bad about their current level. i'm sorry. :/ maybe someday i'll look back at my writing now and think, "ew, wtf." sometimes on here my ego gets carried away, since so many of you tell me in varying ways every day how awesome i am, if we're being honest. so hey, WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME I SUCK NOW AND THEN, HUH? :P go on, this should totally be a Colin Sucks post. say something you don't like about me! (just be polite; i'm being vulnerable here and, contrary to appearances, my ego is actually quite fragile.)

orrrrr... you can just write more badfic so we can all laugh till we cry again. :D

and finally, that person's IP address is in los fucking angeles. where is ryan living again?? i have never, ever had so many anonymous comments on a story as i have on this one. this is getting so, so weird. i didn't really know how to answer their comment, either; i mean, i thought the fic itself kind of explained it the way i saw it. *shrug*

someone needs to start a list of "Evidence Ryan Is Stalking Colin"; i'm losing track. now it's less funny, more creepy.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

i keep forgetting to anonymous comment on these things.

[candiedpeaches.livejournal.com]

okay. in all seriousness, i don't like pointing out flaws. i hate when people are upset, and when i make them upset, i just feel like dying. like, a few days ago, my ex's brother was upset and i didn't know why he was upset. and i thought it was because i had accidently called his brother, (my ex) an asshole that night and i like, cried i was so upset that i thought i'd made him upset.

in the end, it was just an off night for him so it wasn't me, but i still felt horrible and i haven't talked to him for like three days.

so i can make myself feel bad, but if i make somebody else feel bad i cry.

that's one of my flaws right there.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

awww, that's so sweet, bb. that's barely a flaw; only for your own sake. i think it shows you're a really caring person. <3

[candiedpeaches.livejournal.com]

well but i've also been told that i care too much about what other people think and feel that i ignore my own feelings and thoughts. which is true, because i really do act like that.

that and i have no self esteem, which could also be a big part of my personality...

[lolab.livejournal.com]

lol, i'm kind of glad you forgot, because that would've made me sad. :(

[candiedpeaches.livejournal.com]

bahaha. you know i do it on purpose bb.