so stay asleep and put on that cursive type

[behindthec]

subject line = no relevance; i've just been on a p.o. renaissance lately and that's the line currently stuck in my head.

so, okay.  chapter 8?  does not want to be written.  which, like, wtf, b/c i REALLY WANT TO WRITE IT.  it's one of those "omg i can't wait to write this scene!" chapters.  so, FAIL, SOMETHING.  IDK WHAT, BUT, SOMETHING IS FAIL HERE.  help?  write me drabble porn in the comments?


in other news, i was watching more acoustic phanplan vids last night (and squeeing at becca over them), and there are seriously like eight of them where ryan is sitting there beside him, being googly-eyed and making dumbass i-have-a-crush-on-you-and-idk-what-to-say remarks to alex.  at one point he actually got up, went to get them both alcoholic beverages, and returned.  oh ryan.  and during "all over again" they randomly break into PHANTOM OF THE FUCKING OPERA and ryan like, sings along.  i... i just... no words.  gay gay gay gay gay!!!!!!  and during "i don't mind," at the line, "on all fours on a hotel floor," ryan totally gives alex this mischievous grin and says something i can't make out, and then alex smiles.  dude that song is about a mental breakdown.  RYAN ROSS HAS A DIRTY MIND.  WHO KNEW.  fucking hell, i want to ship these two so hard.  i want to WRITE them so hard.  UGH.  it's all worked out in my head, too.  somebody stop me.  chapter 8 takes priority.  alksderjha8of74.

in more news, i see phanplan tomorrow (SKLEJHILFUHSO#IUR$HOIS#UH$O#IU$HO*S&FYOIS#U$YIO#H$OI!!!!!!!!!!) and it's alex's birthday in a few days and i feel like i want to get him something but i have absolutely NO idea what.  i'm terrible at gift ideas even for people i know; i just get gift cards (hell, that's what i'd want to receive, so why not.)  i am not getting alex greenwald a gift card.  so, ideas welcome.

 

also, fail, gchat.  fail.

ETA: by comment request, links to some of the vids.  some of them you have to watch all the way through to catch stuff, but they're awesome anyway.  alex playing acoustic, hai.  also there is the vid of ryan riding around stage on alex's shoulders, and a pic i've got somewhere of them both on stage, with ryan and this MASSIVE grin.  and so on.
- the infamous council bluffs vid, with ryan's shirt entirely unbuttoned, and other things.
- random ryan performing with them on "do the panic"
- "i don't mind", 1:05-ish on.  jesus christ, ross.
- "all over again" + PHANTOM OF THE OPERA WTF
- "dropped"... ryan's also there for no reason
- "raise the dead"... ryan's there, idek.  lol
- "quarantine"... etc.
- "ship lost at sea" -- now this one is a gem, b/c of ryan's dumbass comments at the beginning (<3 <3 <3) and the fact that he's like, got his arm around alex if you watch to the end.  wtf.

there are more, but i've got work to do. :)

Comments

[iamiamamachine.livejournal.com]

i like 'em jonwalkerly, i guess. even though i'm totally crushing on alex deleon right now who's like, TINYTINYTINY and THINTHINTHIN and TINYTINYTINY. and thin. and. tiny. okay. yes. it's either MANLY MEN (stubble beards! muscles! \o/) or WOMANLY WOMEN (curves! \o/) for me, idk. i've never been much of an in-between person i guess, with nothing. haha.

i'm studying philosophy at the moment. kant \o/ it's about knowledge and truth and whether the world is real or not. it's fairly interesting. this one philosopher says that 'esse est percipi aut percipere', to be is to be perceive or to perceive, which would mean that AS SOON AS I CLOSE MY EYES EVERYTHING AROUND ME ISN'T REAL ANYMORE. that's a very nice thought, sometimes. only he also says that there's a god who sees everything and that's kind of where he contradicts himself, because WHO SEES THE GOD?

...yeah, i'll shut up now.

god, i really want to write porn. or. make porn, or whatever. sex \o/

[lolab.livejournal.com]

ahhhh, we're opposite. ;) i love the girly boys. i'm all about the genderfucking. (NOT to be confused with genderswapping, or mpreg, neither of which i will read, ugh.)

oooooh. i need to study philosophy. i have plans to get away from the internet and turn my life around when i'm done w/ pwf, so maybe i will do philosophy then. ;) that is a very interesting thought. you should send me more thoughts like that, because i'm planning a fic (yeah, life-turnaround fail) where brendon and ryan Go Back To The Cabin and it's just this mind-blowing week of falling in love, and i want them to have random epic conversations about life and death and philosophy and shit.

ANYway.

DUDE, IF YOU WANT TO WRITE PORN, WRITE IT. PLEASE. I WILL LOVE YOU SO HARD. WRITE ME SOME JONCER (OR JONRAD? ANYTHING!) PORN IN THE COMMENTS, GO ON. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO.

[iamiamamachine.livejournal.com]

i like emo boys though... they're girly enough! i've only ever liked one boyly girl though, and that was dani from a shot at love with tila tequila one. haha.

LOL. i like your life-turnaroundfail. and the life-turnaround idea, of course. well so far i don't understand anything about immanuel kant's philosophy at all so no more thoughts for this right second :| AND NO PORN. DON'T ENCOURAGE ME. NO PORN UNTIL I'VE FINISHED STUDYING KANT. & whatever chapter comes after his.

ALSO. JONRAD. AWRJAPWEJRPJWERPJAWEPR.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

FINISH YOUR KANT. THEN, WE PORN.

*waits*

[iamiamamachine.livejournal.com]

KAY.

'het empirisme kwam tot de conclusie dat we geen uitspraken kunnen doen buiten onze voorstellingen in de ervaring, het rationalisme doet alleen uitspraken voer de buitenwereld inzoverre deze overeenkomt (of lijkt te komen!) met de wetten van het denken, zoals in de logica. kant zag het mogelijke bouwwerk van de kennis instorten en moest een dergelijk scepticisme kunnen overwinnen om toch de vraag te beantwoorden hoe we 'weten' dat er bij een gebeurtenis sprake is van een gevolg dat door iets anders veroorzaakt wordt.'

DUDE THEY'RE JUST RUNNING AROUND IN CIRCLES.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

...that, see, okay, that is really not in english. if it is porn, i would very much like it in english.

[iamiamamachine.livejournal.com]

haha, dutch porn would suck. it was about kant.
/o\ i'm afraid our porn will have to wait 'till next friday. exam week starts on monday, zomgz.