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behindthecthe meme is usually for 10, but i'm doing 20 because i need 20. this is entirely for me; i really kind of needed this tonight, but feel free to ask about any of them; however, there are a few i won't answer.
1. please don't make me do this anymore, or at least tell me how we're going to fix it. just remember i won't ever stop loving you.
2. can i blow you?
3. sometimes i get carried away by how fond you are of me, the innocent games we play, and i want more than what we can have.
4. i miss last summer.
5. you didn't fuck up nearly as much as you think. i'm not scarred, i have endless happy memories of you, so stop regretting.
6. i wonder if you'll ever stop making me feel inadequate.
7. new york, chicago, helium and cush, were the happiest times of my life. i'm sorry we lost it. thank you, always, for the time we had together.
8. don't stop trying.
9. i don't know if i've told you how much i respect you. you mean a great deal to me, and i wish you were here IRL. thank you for your friendship. i wish one of us could promise the other that we'll never let go of it, but i'm notorious at failing that. let's not jinx it with promises.
10. you're fucking nuts, and it bothers me that i didn't figure it out sooner because i'm good at reading that shit. i know you have a lot of pain. i hope you can get help because you are special and worth it, even if i don't like you.
11. sweet lord, were you ever trouble. i still don't know just what drew me so hard to you, and it makes me angry that i can't really determine what i learned from you, if anything. what use is fucking up if you can't learn from it? you're still the sexiest person who's ever wanted me, so thanks for feeding my ego.
12. have coffee with me, just once? beer, whatever? it doesn't have to be meaningful. i won't ask for anything. just ten minutes of your life, maybe give back one of the thousand smiles you've given me.
13. i want to know everything in your head, as much as you'll tell. not with starry eyes, just person to person. you intrigue me forever and ever.
14. i know you worked hard to do what you thought was best. and for that, i respect you, and thank you.
15. i bet you're married with kids now, but sometimes i want to look you up and see if you remember that when we were five years old, we were engaged.
16. thank you for sending me home that night before it could go any further.
17. i'm sorry i couldn't give you what you needed.
18. you were always such a fucking bitch to me, and i'm so glad you grew up to be ugly and that you look like 10 yrs older than me even though it's only 6 months.
19. thank you for always knowing when it counts.
20. shut up. just. seriously. stop talking. we don't care.
in conclusion, life is confusing. people are even more confusing. bad night suck ass. as does life, often enough. colin is going to bed now.
1. please don't make me do this anymore, or at least tell me how we're going to fix it. just remember i won't ever stop loving you.
2. can i blow you?
3. sometimes i get carried away by how fond you are of me, the innocent games we play, and i want more than what we can have.
4. i miss last summer.
5. you didn't fuck up nearly as much as you think. i'm not scarred, i have endless happy memories of you, so stop regretting.
6. i wonder if you'll ever stop making me feel inadequate.
7. new york, chicago, helium and cush, were the happiest times of my life. i'm sorry we lost it. thank you, always, for the time we had together.
8. don't stop trying.
9. i don't know if i've told you how much i respect you. you mean a great deal to me, and i wish you were here IRL. thank you for your friendship. i wish one of us could promise the other that we'll never let go of it, but i'm notorious at failing that. let's not jinx it with promises.
10. you're fucking nuts, and it bothers me that i didn't figure it out sooner because i'm good at reading that shit. i know you have a lot of pain. i hope you can get help because you are special and worth it, even if i don't like you.
11. sweet lord, were you ever trouble. i still don't know just what drew me so hard to you, and it makes me angry that i can't really determine what i learned from you, if anything. what use is fucking up if you can't learn from it? you're still the sexiest person who's ever wanted me, so thanks for feeding my ego.
12. have coffee with me, just once? beer, whatever? it doesn't have to be meaningful. i won't ask for anything. just ten minutes of your life, maybe give back one of the thousand smiles you've given me.
13. i want to know everything in your head, as much as you'll tell. not with starry eyes, just person to person. you intrigue me forever and ever.
14. i know you worked hard to do what you thought was best. and for that, i respect you, and thank you.
15. i bet you're married with kids now, but sometimes i want to look you up and see if you remember that when we were five years old, we were engaged.
16. thank you for sending me home that night before it could go any further.
17. i'm sorry i couldn't give you what you needed.
18. you were always such a fucking bitch to me, and i'm so glad you grew up to be ugly and that you look like 10 yrs older than me even though it's only 6 months.
19. thank you for always knowing when it counts.
20. shut up. just. seriously. stop talking. we don't care.
in conclusion, life is confusing. people are even more confusing. bad night suck ass. as does life, often enough. colin is going to bed now.