teaser: kink #4

[behindthec]

the votes are in: and thus, so is breathplay.  this is YOUR xmas gift, after all. ;)

teaser for kink 4 (and this is my favourite paragraph in the whole damn scene; way to like, spoil it for you guys; whatever).

He swallows and says, "Close your eyes."

 

Brendon does, only now realizing he hadn't quite braced himself for this, having to hand over this much control to Ryan and still expect his own body to behave.  He knows it's all going to hell at the first touch of the small, spongy eyeshadow tip across his eyelid, Ryan's breath hot on his face and smelling of the little caramels he's taken to popping before shows.  It's not until Ryan starts whispering instructions -- "Lift your chin a bit; good," guiding Brendon's face with his free hand, his fingertip sliding across the sensitive skin underneath his eyes to blend the shades -- that Brendon realizes he could get addicted to this harder than heroin: Ryan easing him into full surrender, an implicit request for Brendon to come apart in his hands.

i'll be honest, that image even makes ME shiver, okay.  original inspiration, obv:

oh hey so recently, as like a try-anything-once dare to myself, i read three things i never ever wanted to: mpreg, genderswap, and a kink that grosses me the fuck out (golden showers).  AND I LIVED!!! \o/  it was a nasty ride, though, even though they were ryden and all really well-written.  yay, i have balls!  (but mostly ew.)

also, way to out your frontman, smith. :DDDDDDDD  my squee/keymashing over this interview was exhausted in conversation with becca, so all i have left is :DDDDDDD.

oh, and can i just say HOW MUCH I AM FUCKING IN LOVE WITH "WINTER PASSING".  it gives me chills every time and could singlehandedly take me into a bilvy/TAI renaissance.

speaking of bilvy: # 5 and 10. ;)

Comments

[bunniesontoast.livejournal.com]

OMG BILVY'S IN THESE?
ILY.

i got sent home from school

[lolab.livejournal.com]

in TWO of them, no less. i'm writing one now. he's a kinky motherfucker. damn.

oh dear. why?

[bunniesontoast.livejournal.com]

guuuuuuh Bilvyyyyyyyyyyy. it's so, so obvious that I love him more than everyone else xD

i got the worst case of stomach cramps i've had since...ever. i was all 'thanks, gender. 'preciate it.'

[fixme-in-45.livejournal.com]

*giggles*
damn i wasn't expecting that when i refreshed the page
i should go take a cold shower like, now.

except: OMFGSPENCERSMITHILY
So I think that what he’s trying to say is that the first album, people thought we were gay, especially Brendon -- which may be true. Undetermined at this point. He doesn’t have a wife, so…

nofuckingway did he just semi-out Brendon
this makes my heart do handsprings
admitting to smoking up and getting stoned, even when we all knew it deep down anyway...
yeah, that makes me sad. HE DID NOT NEED TO MAKE IT TRUEFAX
but :D

O_o William Beckett cameos in the secret kinks of Brendon Urie
guh, yes.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

:D I KNOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

yeah i try to just ignore the whole stoned thing. it works well for me. lol.

dude, fuck cameos, he fucking STARS in two of these. XD

[the-randomist.livejournal.com]

:O YAY MAKEUPS AND SITTIN STILL. HOT.
x]

And I so agree, golden showers are ickyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. And mpreg is just creepy. I mean, wtf. ALTHOUGH.
The Road Ain't No Place to Start a Family
That is the kind of mpreg I can handle. In the cracked-out, hi-you-can-tell-I'm-totally-not-serious-about-this way. xD Like the author is making fun of mpreg. And mini!Brendons jerking each other off! Ken-doll clothes! They are pissy about fashion! teehee.

YAY!!! I APPROVE OF YOU OUTING YOUR FRONTMAN!!! WAY TO GO SPENCER!!!! :D!
The stoned thing makes me sad, though. Dx I wanted to be in denial, and now I can't. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

MAKEUP FTMFW.

golden showers are pretty nasty man. it was written really well and thus a lot less gross than it could've been, but still. dnw.

spencer is MY NEW FAVOURITE.

yeah, well. me too. i went through a period where i really let it bother me, but now i just try to remember what i really love about them is the characters we create, not necessarily the actual ppl. plus i figure they're still so young; they'll probably grow out of their weed phase in a few years.

[monamour-x.livejournal.com]

I GOTS SO MANY MIXED FEELINGS RIGHT NOW IDK WHAT TO DO!!!

BREATHPLAY! BREATHPLAY! BREATHPLAY! *chants some more* i know you already know that i am excited about this but i just couldn't hold it in. :D
emotion #1: excitement.

i love when ryan does brendons make up in fics. like...its a serious turn on for me. just...omg. i have goosebumps. and the chills. same thing? one causes the other...? i'm rambling.
emotion #2: totally turned on. (shut up, its totally an emotion.)

okay, just. ew. WHY DID YOU READ THOSE? *shivers* like...i need a legit reason. like...golden showers? blech!!! dfjdpjfpsd ack. lol.
emotion #3: grossed out. hahaha. :D

SPENCER SMITH.
emotion #5: love.

GO GAYS AND DEMOCRATS! WOOOOT!!!! YEAH SPENCE!!
emotion #6: pride.

DRUGS?! i mean...i knew. come on, everyone knows. but like...idk. it sort of made it official and it makes me sad. i love panic, but thats something i just really don't approve of for many personal reasons and...fuck. it makes me really upset. DD:
emotion #7: disapointment.

spencer basically outing brendon. holy fuck. i had about seven diferent kinds of heart attacks when i read that. like...omg. i can't even formulate words to express how this makes me feel.
emotion #7: over-joyed doesn't even cover it...

winter passing <3

HEY! IT'S ME! :D haha jk. (i'm so glad bilvy's in 2 of the kinks omg ily)

[lolab.livejournal.com]

BREATHPLAY FTMFW. i kind of can't wait.

MAKE-UP FTMFW ALSO.

dude i don't even know. i figured i should try everything once. so i did. lol. that's kind of what i've been doing this year, trying things i never got the chance or had the guts to try before. weed... boys... etc. (not terribly impressed with the former, but i have definitely found i love sucking dick, so.)

i went through a period where i really, really let the weed/booze thing get to me. and now it doesn't as much, because i know what i really love about them is the characters we create, not the real people. plus i figure they're still young; they'll probably grow out of their wild phase in a few years. if they expect to have any brain cells left to write music, anyway.

yeah. i mean, brendon's kind of outed himself several times, but still, this was the most official one so far! i have a feeling he's trying to come out as slowly and subtly as possible, so when it's finally "official" it won't be a big deal at all. i have a feeling, maybe for his family's sake, that he doesn't want it to be a big publicized thing.

[monamour-x.livejournal.com]

GAHHH!!! i have to gooooooooooooooooo!

i'll leave a real comment back to this later...

but i finished the drabbles!!! you can check them out...i'd leave a link but i really don't have time so just go to my journal and find them if you wanna read them.

ily <3 i'll leave a real comment later.

[monamour-x.livejournal.com]

okay. so...okay.

first of all: PSHHHHHHHH. you're excited? you get to read them whenever you want. you're writing them. *pouts* i am such a baby right now but idec. no, but i actually get why your excited...obviously, you can't wait to read my reaction to the breathplay. *nods head*

i want ryan to do my make up...*wiggles eyebrows* dude, i just totally made that sexy.

okay, so i get the whole "trying everything once" thing, but seriously? some things don't need to be tried. at all. ever. because they are gross (coughgoldenshowerscough). ack. but hahaha its nice to know you like sucking dick. thanks for sharing. :D lol ily. i wouldn't know...i've never tried bahaha.

so, here's my deal with weed. see. okay. i regret many decisions i've made in the past...but, from experience (*facepalm*), i don't enjoy being high. well...okay, maybe thats a lie. being high is fine, because yeah it feels good at the time. i just feel so...not in control. you know? like, with drinking? at least i sort of have an idea of what the fuck i am doing and saying, right? with weed...i don't. i'm not...in control. i also have had bad experiences with drugs and w/ ppl who do drugs and just...no.
like, i get what your saying about loving the characters we create but i still don't approve or like that they do that stuff at all. personally. idk...maybe i'm just immature hahahaha.

*hopes your feeling is right*

ily <3

[lolab.livejournal.com]

true. i do get to read them whenever i want. *goes to read them* oooh.... aahhhh.. :PPPPPP

my excitement in writing comes from seeing all your reactions. <3

if ryan did my makeup i would come all over him, the end.

ahahahah no, some things don't need to be tried. but i figured hey, better to try it in FIC than in real life. :P yes, ah, sucking dick. it's the only thing i can do with a boy that lets me still feel like a boy (except handjobs, and i love those too). but it's like, we read about these uber hot blowjobs all day long in fic; i just enjoy "participating" sometimes. :D

oh, i agree. i don't approve of what they do either. and i'm not a big fan of weed at all, i think it's highly overrated. if i want to have "fun", it's always gonna be booze for me, lol. but i'm just saying i try not to let it get to me so personally, because it's not worth my energy. i just try to enjoy them as characters and realize i have no control over them as people.

[monamour-x.livejournal.com]

YOU'RE MEEEEAAAAANNN COLIN. A BIG MEAN MEAN MEANY-PANTS WHO LIKES TO TEASE ME WITH HOT BREATHPLAY FICS. D:<

pshh. mine are your favorite. just addmit it. *grins*

HAHAHA me too.

omg. just...yes, it definitely is better to do it in fic than in real life. i cannot even begin to explain to you how much better that is. :P who WOULDN'T like participating sometimes? lol.

i don't do...anything. booze or otherwise. like, i have? but when i was not in a good mind set and at a really bad time in my life. i did things i really regret and i don't do that stuff anymore. it just hurts me to see them do that when i know...what i know now. :/ but you're right. obviously. i'm just too emotional, fuck.

oh yeah. okay, so i babysat my nephew today (i'm actually, technically, still babysitting him, but the kids asleep so i'm sneakin' on da computa) and he started asking me all of these questions about "how can raindeer fly?" and "how does santa get all around the whole wide world in one night?" and "why does rudolf's nose nose glow?" and a ton of these other questions that, if not answered correctly, can jepordize his innocence and his childhood. i was like, WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME? D: i kept feeling like i was going to say something wrong and make him stop believing in santa. but then he just kind of sat there for a little while and pondered my answers before getting up to go reenact some power rangers thing he saw on tv or something. it was terrifying lol.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

:D

no, i get it. you're not too emotional. i am pretty much against any kind of mind-altering substance. i'll get mildly drunk every few months or so, but it's in the safety of my home with people i trust, so i figure that's okay.

baahahahahah see, that's why i'm not telling my kid about santa. it's all such bullshit. my kid's going to be the biyug7gs (that was supposed to be biggest but pete stepped on the keyboard) realist ever.

[monamour-x.livejournal.com]

:P

well, obviously, thats okay. i'm just against like....see, the panic boys seem to ALWAYS be high? i mean, seriously, is that just me? because in interviews its like...noticeable. and it happens a lot and i'm just like..wtf? stop. i mean, brendon's just BARELY legal and he's already doing that shit and, okay, yeah, it wasn't like i was necessarily legal when i did it but....idk. well, now i feel like a hypocrite. just. i don't want them jeopardizing their futures or anything, thats all.

see. i'm gonna let my kids believe in santa and stuff, because i feel like thats a part of childhood that is really special. we have our whole lives to be realistic...why not let the kids believe in a magic while they still can?

PEEEEEEEETTTTTTEEEEEE!! i seriously...i just want to come over to your house and kiss him all over. seriously. and then i want to squish you because you seem so squishable. and then i want to squish your nonexistent kid. because i'm sure they'll be cute. <3

[lolab.livejournal.com]

it's not just you. it is a problem. but i just prefer not to think or talk about it. it's easier for me that way. *shrug*

i'll warn you, there is mildly stoned!sex in kink 7 (i was trying to make it realistic, ugh), but for some reason it didn't bother me as much when i wrote it. i like to think they only smoke up to relax from coming off a tour. ;) /delusional.

PETE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you can squish us both. if you have my babies, you can squish them too, all you want.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

*number 8, not 7.

[monamour-x.livejournal.com]

*nods in agreement*

D: its okay. i mean...yeah, whatever. lol. its you, so i don't really care as much because i trust you and stuff and like...i had more of a point to that but i just lost it. but...so...gahhhhhhh. forgive me, my brain is mush at the moment. i'm having a bad day. :(

*squishes you both* I WANT YOUR BABIES, COLIN. :D

[phillyfilly.livejournal.com]

I forgive you cuz you always spoil us so good!

[lolab.livejournal.com]

:D

[justranda.livejournal.com]

Which stories did you read? Are they worth reccing? I can handle well-written mpreg where there is some kind of plausible medical reason behind it and not just that boys have babies. Genderswap confuses me some, even though I've written it. But I just can't resist well-written girl!Spencer, girl!Bden or girl!Ryan. Jon can't be a girl, though. He's a boy. A real boy.

I didn't think it was possible to love Spencer more than I do. My gaydar wants to huge the ever loving fuck out of him. I seriously respect him a little more. I know everyone is totally dwelling on the getting high thing, but I can't hate on that without being a hypocrite. I maybe don't smoke up as often as they do, but I still do it and therefore don't feel that I have reason to complain. However, I will say that I will be immensely upset if the alcohol or weed ever screw up a performance.

I haven't listened to 'Winter Passing' yet, though I have no idea why.

In other news, I met mini!Toro on Thursday! And omg he's really as pocket-sized in person as he looks in videos. oO I was so afraid of breaking him.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

i honestly can't remember; i didn't save them or anything. yeah, it was a plausible medical thing, not just random... but idk, procreation is a big phobia of mine anyway so maybe that's why i can't take it. :P genderswap i just can't do. it's like, why waste a perfectly good dick? LOL. i read one once but it wasn't REALLY genderswap, it was written like it could be canon. spencer was me, basically, a girl who wanted to be a guy and cross-dressed and the media never figured it out until after he actually went through the transition. and he fell in love with jon, so. \o/ it was awesome.

yeah. i'm not opposed to occasional weedage/boozing, but they seem to do it soooo freaking much and you can just visibly TELL how stoned they are sometimes; it makes me sad.

winter passing is amazing.

OMG MINI!TORO!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[justranda.livejournal.com]

I just had this conversation with buildyourwalls about the weed/alcohol and in all honesty, I'm worried about Brendon. He drinks so much and now that he's legal, you rarely see him without a drink. I know he was drinking before then because I've heard the stories and seen the videos of him puking on stage, but it's getting ridiculous. When does it become too much? Before or after the band is destroyed?

Mini!Toro. Pay no attention to the dork me next to him.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

i know. i don't like to think or talk about it, so i'll just leave it at that and hope he's just going through a rebellious phase and will get over it in a few years. :)

OMG PIC!!!!!!! AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :DDDDDDDDD

[justranda.livejournal.com]

He looked so scared when people started crowding around him. I was surprised that as many people that did knew who he was. He's completely adorable and sweet, but he looked so overwhelmed, like he wanted to just run as fast as possible in the other direction.