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Rating: R
Pairing: Brendon/William
Kink du Jour: Snowballing. (Author's favorite! \o/)
Word Count: ~1,340
Disclaimer: Fiction as far as I know.
Summary: His voice has shifted a bit, fingers teasing a pattern on the leg of Brendon's jeans, when he whispers, "You save anything on the list for me?"
Notes: Vignette 10 of 12; Bden's ~Sekrit Kink Series based on email/IM/comment requests from this fic (now #7 in the series). One a day through Christmas: here is my holiday gift to my friendslist. ;)
Please visit the master post for a list of all 12 vignettes. You can read them independently, but they are connected, so it's much better to read them in order.
Brendon feels old.
He's aware of the logic, or lack thereof, because next to Spencer, he's one of the youngest people at his twenty-first birthday party, v.Pete'sHouse. Maybe it's Pete's fault. Brendon doesn't know if he still wants to look and act sixteen when he's Pete's age. He loves Pete, but it's kind of weird. Then again, Ryan's practically Brendon's age and he acts like, eighty, and as much as he loves Ryan, Brendon doesn't want that either.
It probably doesn't help much that his whimsical New Year's resolution had been to give up sex for a year to try "finding himself" a different way, maybe, and that in four months it hasn't been remotely difficult to keep said resolution.
Sigh.
It's not like the offers haven't been there. But groupies creep him out and Shane's been back with Regan for awhile and everyone on the label seems to have girlfriends now and. Besides. Brendon's kind of getting to that point where he's able to admit it in his head how he feels, so now it's basically Ryan or nothing.
Looks like it's going to be a whole big load of nothing for quite some time.
It's not like he didn't try to talk to him after that night, a thousand and one times at least, but every time he started, Ryan shot him a look that reminded him of the look Spencer gives you when he knows you're about to ask him for an unfairly huge favor.
After a few months, he stopped trying.
Bill finds him (of course he does) once Brendon's abandoned the over-loud downstairs festivities and escaped to his room -- or, Pete's guest room, rather, but Brendon's been calling it his room for years and Pete only encourages it. The memories are good and he basically marked his territory on the bedspread three years ago, so it's kind of inevitable.
He comes bearing that crooked Beckett smile and two red plastic cups. "Room for two?"
Brendon smiles, scooting over where he's propped up against the headboard, knees folded to his chest as he finishes up a round of pinball on his Sidekick. He accepts the drink and takes a sip, smiling inside. Few people know his favorite drink because it's about eight drinks mixed together in specific proportions, but it seems Bill's one of them. He's just awesome that way.
Bill nudges his knee with his own. "You're hiding."
"I'm escaping," Brendon clarifies, smirking at him sideways.
"From what?"
"The woes of my miserable existence."
"Damn. Somebody needs to get laid."
"Tell me about it."
Bill grins, slinging an arm across Brendon's shoulders and Brendon falls into it, letting his head pillow on Bill's shoulder, breathing in the warm, familiar smell of his laundry detergent, the impossibly over-scented stuff you only find at laundromats on tour. Brendon misses touring, suddenly.
"How's that list going, puppy?"
Brendon merely snorts.
"You tell Ryan you love him yet?"
"Shut uuuup."
Bill giggles, hauls Brendon close and tips his head down until his lips are pressed soft to the side of Brendon's head. His voice has shifted a bit, fingers teasing a pattern on the leg of Brendon's jeans, when he whispers, "You save anything on the list for me?"
Brendon can't not smile, because it's William, who makes him feel safer than almost anyone else, despite his creeper whoredom, and, hell: resolutions are made to be broken.
He tilts his head up, flashing his most brilliant smile. "Your favorite."
Bill's eyes sparkle at the implication, but his smile falters a bit. "Thought you were saving that for Ryan."
"Ugh!" Brendon whines, flopping over until he's draped across Bill's lap, clasping one of Bill's hands and burying his face in the palm. "Stop stabbing me in the heart, it's not gonna happen, can I just blow you already?"
Bill's laugh is so beautiful and clear, the buzz from his drink tipping him just to the right side of relaxed, his inhibitions lowered right to that point where everything is perfect, every emotion, every sensation, every thought. Brendon knows because it's just about where he is, too.
He grins wide when the laughter subsides. "Knock yourself out, puppy."
"Yay," Brendon remarks softly with a smile, climbing up to crawl into Bill's lap, proper this time, one leg on each side as he leans in, cupping Bill's face with warm hands as their lips meet, easy and soft, just what he needs.
Bill's kind of like the Room of Requirement that way (oh, Jon), chameleon-like, always seeming to be just what Brendon needs exactly when he needs it. Crazy and sadistic one moment; sweet and soft the next. Brendon almost feels a pang of regret knowing how utterly incompatible they'd be in a relationship, despite obvious attraction and an endless supply of affection for one another. But he'll take this, loves this, even if it'll never be enough for good, because it's enough for now -- and Bill feels so good under his hands, pale and soft and perfectly shaped, all the best angles of a boy and all the right curves of a girl. He's gorgeous, freakishly so, with hair that spills onto Brendon's shoulders when they fuck, and neverending limbs that wrap around him until he feels safe, tiny and protected, and that, that, is just what he needs, here and now.
"You're so hot," Bill announces conversationally as Brendon's working on the fly of his jeans, and it's said in just the right way that Brendon actually blushes. "You are. You're gorgeous. Your mouth, fuck."
Brendon raises an eyebrow as he peels off the skintight jeans, tugging them down over Bill's legs and chucking them to the floor. "Don't count your chickens till, uh, I'm blowing you."
Bill laughs, and Brendon loves the choked sound of his voice cutting off as Brendon licks his lips and closes them around Bill's cock, making a slippery wet seal as he begins to bob his head. Bill's hands come to tangle in his hair, and it never fails to make Brendon shiver, how much like Ryan's they are, or how he imagines Ryan's would feel like this, delicate and long and dextrous, guitarist callouses rough in contrast when his fingertips brush Brendon's cheek.
Brendon's so lost in it, in Ryan, that the sudden flood of bitter warmth in his mouth comes as a shock, having nearly forgotten what it is they're doing. The taste is never amazing, but it's good, it's one Brendon's gotten used to and one that warms his whole body, thick and comforting, coupled with the way the person beneath him relaxes, melting from the climax.
A jolt of excitement shoots straight to his own dick when he climbs back up Bill's body, the release still trapped in his mouth, swishing over his tongue, and Bill grabs him tight when he's close, pulls him forward as Brendon seals their lips together and waits for Bill to open up for him before he follows, letting the milky white liquid drip from his own mouth to Bill's. It's fucking hot, even more than he'd expected, the way Bill's tongue chases his, searching out his own taste and licking it hungrily into his own mouth, their tongues fighting for possession of it. They don't stop until every last drop has been swallowed, till Brendon's mouth has been practically ravaged top to bottom, till they're breathless and panting, and when he finally pulls back, Bill's eyes are huge, glowing, practically golden.
"Holy fuck," he gasps.
"Yeah." Brendon chokes on an attempt to laugh, trying to catch his breath. "Seriously, yeah. Fuck."
"Fuck."
"Totally."
Bill smiles. "Wanna try?"
"Fuck yes."
It's a wicked, wicked grin as Bill flips them over and starts crawling down Brendon's body, but Brendon knows that's the first sign it's going to be damn good.
Bill's mouth trails across the inside of his thigh, tickling and teasing, and just before he swallows him down, he whispers, "Happy birthday."
Brendon closes his eyes and tries to believe it is.
[# 11 tomorrow.]
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Date: 2008-12-23 12:13 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2008-12-23 12:42 pm (UTC)And, oh my. Day 10 already.
I'm curious.
You're doing a great job and I can't wait to read the last two parts.
Praying for a Happy End, though. ;)
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Date: 2008-12-23 12:43 pm (UTC)day 10! i kinda can't believe it. thank you so much; i'm glad you're enjoying.
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Date: 2008-12-23 12:43 pm (UTC)...this is always at the top of my flist in the mornings...im beginning to worry that LJ is secretly some sort of magician...well, when i say worry...
AND BRENDON YOUR WOES OF UNREQUITED LOVE MAKE ALL OUR HEARTS BURN. ...as does your lingering ability to get all the hottest lays...sigh...XD
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:36 pm (UTC)bahaha. yeah. i feel equally sorry for and jealous of bden. XD ty, bb!
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Date: 2008-12-23 01:10 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-12-23 01:27 pm (UTC)just *sigh* brendon. stop thinking about ryan when you're with bill beckett.
[i never realised snowballing was so hot]
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Date: 2008-12-23 01:21 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-12-23 05:45 pm (UTC)<3333333333333etc to you. :)
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Date: 2008-12-23 02:51 pm (UTC)Brendon/William that was just perfect so very very hot!
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:45 pm (UTC)DUDE YOUR ICON WHERE THE FUCK IS THAT FROM IS THAT SERIOUSLY LITTLE BILLIAM??? HOLY SHIT BRB ORGASMING
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Date: 2008-12-23 03:02 pm (UTC)love this.
favourite.
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:46 pm (UTC)ty bb. <333
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Date: 2008-12-23 03:09 pm (UTC)Also, Harry Potter references make my fucking life, and it's probably my favourite part in this whole thing, which just shows you how much of a fucking nerdbot i am.
hanyway. hi, fucking hot, is that you?
why yes. yes it is.
I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE END.
RAWR.
I WANTS TO KNOW RITE NAO.
Also, I think I'm going to only give you that fic I'm writing on Christmas day, after I read the last of these. Then it'll be like a real christmas present/thank you.
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:47 pm (UTC)HARRY POTTER!!!!!! YES!!!!!!! *HOLDS YOUR HANDS AND JUMPS UP AND DOWN WITH YOU AND SQUEES*
a;slekj4a;oifpai3w4! FIC! omg! i. i want it now, but. that is exciting, and it might actually make me love christmas. :D ty ty ty. <3333333333333 = you.
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Date: 2008-12-23 03:14 pm (UTC)I love unrequited love and stuff, but this is just painful. :P
(And really really really really hot.
And did I mention hot?)
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:47 pm (UTC)ty, bb. <3333
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Date: 2008-12-23 03:22 pm (UTC)yay! william's back!! weeee!!!
*runs off to read*
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Date: 2008-12-23 04:13 pm (UTC)HAHAHAHAHAA ryan so is an eighty year old man. i swear to god i go to my great (let me ephasize that: great) grandma's house sometimes and see, like, fifty things that ryan would orgasm over. and all i can think is "fail, ross." then i get all weirded out because it's like, fuck, i'm attracted to a senior citizen.
lol i love how brendon has his own room in pete's house. he so would.
"The woes of my miserable existence."
i did a half-laugh-half-frowny-cry-thing when i read that. shut up, it makes sense. :P
i still love how bill calls bden puppy. *smish*
"You are. You're gorgeous. Your mouth, fuck."
HIS MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u934yh802g230432094h343 *flails and gestures widely at icon* HIS MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!! ue9r3h2493h4923gh943y2h493h9-4u3294-32u4-u24
Bill's mouth trails across the inside of his thigh, tickling and teasing, and just before he swallows him down, he whispers, "Happy birthday."
when i read that i said, "Ah, happy birthday indeed!" like the loser i am. But, anyways, that was pretty hot, not gonna lie.
you know what i don't get? i've been thinking...where do we get the whole idea that bilvy is a sex-addicted crazy whore dude? when in real life he's all...delicate. and soft spoken. and....not very whorish at all. i mean. i. whatever. i'm going to start getting off topic.
so. this was hot. your blowjobs are always my favorite. i mean, wait. the blowjobs...you write are always my favorite...ha...haha...hahaha...ha.
*blushes*
and i maybe have a huge kink for snowballing. so, yeah. thats all i can say about that, because i'm already shaking just thinking about it. *shivers*
i feel sorry for bden. and i'm trying to feels sorry for ryro. my heart hurts now.
*sighs all melancholy-y*
i emailed you back (
twice). jsyk. loser, that email was so late. i actually laughed, though, because i had to go back and re-read the one i sent to you to know what you were talking about. :Pgod, ily. <333
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Date: 2008-12-23 04:36 pm (UTC)bilvy bilvy bilvyy!
you have no idea how much i love bilvy
and how much i love YOUR bilvy--minus the whore part though since still just can't picture that
your brendon/bill dynamic is freaking perfect.
"Brendon almost feels a pang of regret knowing how utterly incompatible they'd be in a relationship, despite obvious attraction and an endless supply of affection for one another"
awuhhhhh....they seem so perfect though. they just...fit.
your desrcription of bill is beyond perfect. srsly. like this part right here:: "pale and soft and perfectly shaped, all the best angles of a boy and all the right curves of a girl. He's gorgeous, freakishly so, with hair that spills onto Brendon's shoulders when they fuck, and neverending limbs that wrap around him until he feels safe, tiny and protected"
k that was freaking long but honestly, i don't think you could have described bill more perfectly.
words can't describe how much i adore how bilvy still calls bden 'puppy'. it's just so fitting and...so cute! bill's a cat...bden's a puppy. :)
more bden/bilvy awesomeness:: he found him upstairs of course! he knows bden's impossible drink! <333
now see, the thought of snowballing when i imagine it is just UGH
but reading YOUR snowballing was...hot. veryveryhot. because you can do things like that.
now onto the heartbreaking ryan-ness
HE WONT EVEN TALK TO BDEN ABOUT IT?! really? really.
brendon stopped trying... D:
that line made my heart wilt...like a dying flower...??
and then, of course, brendon cannot engage in sexual interactions without thinking about ryan and then forgetting he's engaging in said sexual interactions
and his birthday. it isn't happy. :(
ryan needs to grab my brenny-bear and squeeze endless amounts of love into him. and then he needs to find his kink-list and go through every single thing on that list and knock them all out in one sexy-packed night :)
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Date: 2008-12-23 08:25 pm (UTC)they are definitely cute together, yeah, but i think they both need someone who will take care of them; it doesn't balance in the end.
YES. KITTEH AND PUPPY. THIS IS THEM.
:DDDDDDDDDD
i'm glad you approve of MY snowballing at least. ;) yeah it's kind of an odd thought just by itself, like i'd never even thought about it until i read it in a reeeally well written fic, and it just blindsided me and i was like, WOW, WANT FOREVER.
ryan has his reasons for not talking. he is a very confused bb. you'll see. ;)
ryan needs to find the kinklist, huh? god, that would be disastrous. oooooh, especially if brendon walked in on it!
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Date: 2008-12-23 04:56 pm (UTC)I can wait to see how this all ends. Yay!
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:48 pm (UTC)ty, bb!
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:06 pm (UTC)Oh, and snowballing. Um. Yeah. *goes off to take cold shower*
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:49 pm (UTC)SNOWBALLING IS LIFE.
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:27 pm (UTC)Mmm... I love it. Love it, love it, love it, love it, as always.
And Brendon, bb, don't worry. Ryan may be a stubborn ass sometimes, but he'll come around. Hopefully. ^^;
I can't wait for the next one :D <333
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:50 pm (UTC)tysm, bb. yeah. give ryan some time. ;)
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:40 pm (UTC)i adore the two of them. so much.
Stop stabbing me in the heart, it's not gonna happen, can I just blow you already? WIN. EPIC WIN. PERFECTION.
and i love the bit about Bill as the room of requirement. because he totally is. i can see him being, like, a total skank, but also all quiet and emotional, and i love him.
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:51 pm (UTC)BAHAH thanks, that line came outta nowhere. ;)
yeah, i think bill has a lot of sides; that's why he's so much fun to write. he makes any pairing interesting (as does ryan).
tysm, bb. ily.
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Date: 2008-12-23 05:46 pm (UTC)HOW SO AWESOME BILVY? HOW?
(DUDE. DUDE. I JUST LOOKED OUT THE WINDOW AND THERE'S THIS PATTERN ON THE SKY, LIKE CLOUDS OR PLANE SMOKE, AND IT'S A DICK. I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING)
guess what! i'm not hiding today! i just ushered everyone out of the room telling them i'd be down in a sec! yay! xD
gahaghaghagh i love this kink. it's like. it shouldn't be this hot. it's ridiculous. but i love it \o/
AND BRENDON CALLS PETE'S ROOM HIS ROOM AND PEET ENCOURAGES IT. PEEEEEEEEEET. AND, LIKE, CHAMELEON!BILVY, PUPPY!MELANCHOLIC!BDEN. SO MUCH WIN, COLIN. Yes, this one definitely goes right after the other three I love, okay.
i ave to gooo nooooow. but i looooveee thiiiis, i love youuuu. i shall smile now. like a lot. and it'll be my I-have-a-super-hot-image-in-my-brain-but-you-dont-know-that-because-you-are-related-to-me-and-if-you-knew-you-would-freak-out-and-i-would-laugh-my-ass-out smile!
such a nice day! ♥
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Date: 2008-12-23 08:31 pm (UTC)THERE IS A DICK IN THE SKY? I WANT YOUR VACATION.
i love this kink too. definitely my favourite. ;ldskjpoawfjpwa45.
LOL! that's like a hyphen record. you win fandom.
<3333 ily.
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Date: 2008-12-23 06:13 pm (UTC)In fic, we often do this thing wherein hot sex=true love. I adore the fact that Brendon has hot sex with friends, that while he is in love with Ryan and deeply attracted to him, the two concepts aren't conflated. Because real people have sex, even really good sex, with people they aren't in love with all the time.
I'm trying to figure out how I can read the next two parts of this while at my in-laws for the holidays. Because I don't really need them to know what kind of porn I read, but I'll be upset if I have to wait a week for the end.
Thanks for sharing this! It's, like, the sexiest character study ever.
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Date: 2008-12-23 08:32 pm (UTC)i agree entirely. ain't nothing wrong with hot casual friendsex. :D
ahahahah. well you can always clear the browser history when you're done. XD
you're very welcome, and thanks for reading!
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Date: 2008-12-23 06:51 pm (UTC)as usual
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awww this is almost over
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~waits for more~
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Date: 2008-12-23 08:34 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-12-23 07:39 pm (UTC)haha, hi, I'm hyper. maybe i should take my ritalin. xD
oops.
BUT OH GOD THE IMAGINING IT'S RYAN SO AWESOME EEEEE.'
And puppy! I can't get over that, it's so damn cute!!!
WILLINDON
Yeah, okay, Ureckett sounds way fucking better, shouln't have tried. xD
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Date: 2008-12-23 08:40 pm (UTC)i like you off your ritalin, akshuly. :D
URECKETT, WEHAULIT.
towing since 2005.
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Date: 2008-12-23 08:09 pm (UTC)I want to take Ryan and shake him and point out what he's missing! jeez, seriously.
But i really love the whole comparison between bill and ryan. and also the casual comfort between these two.
lovelovelove
=D
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Date: 2008-12-23 08:40 pm (UTC)thank you bb!
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Date: 2008-12-23 09:23 pm (UTC)As much as I love him w/ William (because come ON it's damn cute, and "puppy" XDDD I almost squeeled, which would have been awkward as I'm in an extremely public place XD) but yeah
Brendon needs RyRo to make him happy, and no one else (at least, in this series lol)
That was hot
yes, yes it was
would it be totally retarded of me to say that my favorite part was the kiss afterwards?? lol
"tomorrow, Tomorrow, I love you, tomorrow, you're only a DAYYYYYY AAAWWWWAAAAAYYYYYYY!" *Sings* haha, can't wait Specially for X-mas, that will probably be the best X-mas present i get this year (no joke lol)
I LOVE YOU!!!!
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Date: 2008-12-23 09:30 pm (UTC)hehe, well the kiss afterwards WAS the kink, so, it was my favourite too. XD
thank you, bb! ily2!
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Date: 2008-12-23 10:43 pm (UTC)Okay. Melancholy!Bden is breaking my heart. In a I've-been-there-but-I-don't-want-you-to-be kind of way. :( <3
And then there's this - "Don't count your chickens till, uh, I'm blowing you." XD
And of course, the actual snowballing, UNF. Jesus, Brendon. And Bill. It's so sad that they can't be together, but I love the relationship they have. Sex on tap from Bill Beckett is never something to be sad about. :D
I can't stop laughing at "Ureckett, we haul it". XD
<3<3<3<3
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Date: 2008-12-23 10:48 pm (UTC)i knowwww, bden is killing me. sigh.
HAHAHA THEIR SHIP NAME IS EPIC.
<3
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Date: 2008-12-23 10:44 pm (UTC)*fails*
<33 why is it almost over =[
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Date: 2008-12-23 10:48 pm (UTC)<3 ily.
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Date: 2008-12-23 11:24 pm (UTC)Fuck, I can't believe this series is coming to a close already. Damn Christmas! ;)
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Date: 2008-12-23 11:58 pm (UTC)i KNOW. god. STUPID CHRISTMAS.
<3
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Date: 2008-12-24 12:10 am (UTC)REALLY GOOD.
this is yet another reason why christmas/december/theholidays should be longer. it should be longer, less cold, and should contain more free stuff and PORN.
and less... pollution. =)
=) anyways, merry almost christmas. you're amazing =)
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Date: 2008-12-24 12:11 am (UTC)I AGREE. MORE PORN ALWAYS. happy holidays!