chapter 5 teaser.

[behindthec]

don't think this is gonna be up by thursday, but as always, i'll try.

"It does [suit you]," he says softly. "Chopin's kind of... sad, sometimes. Romantic without meaning to be... it's gentle, soft. Sometimes people don't realize how much there is to it because it's quiet, because it sounds nice, fades easily into the background. But there's a lot going on under the surface that you don't really see or feel until you play it."

He doesn't know where the words are coming from; maybe it's just music, a language on its own, separate from English, separate from the part of his brain filled with empty, human words, all the things he wants to say to Ryan and can't.

Maybe... maybe this says more.

"Music is everything to you, isn't it?" Ryan says without looking up.

Brendon blinks back a sudden prick behind his eyelids. "Not everything."
 

Comments

[stereotypeloser.livejournal.com]

Mmmmm... Chopin.

Mmmmmm Ryan and Brendon in LOVE.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

they really are in love, it's disgusting.

[alphabetatoast.livejournal.com]

YES YES YES.
OMG YES.
(I agree so hard about Chopin btw. And Bden analysing music RE Ryan's character? Made of so much win. I just adore how you make him breathe music. So perfect.)

God. This is so beautiful bb. Absolutely love this fic. And you. Xx

[lolab.livejournal.com]

:D thank you! the scene is hella sad, just to warn you. :P

[ms-author.livejournal.com]

The way you write makes me all weak at the knees. This is gorgeous even if it is only a snippet ^_^

[lolab.livejournal.com]

aww, thank you! i warn you, the scene is depressing.

[guilt-lines.livejournal.com]

sad!fic is sad.

Need Rilonx to get my life back

[lolab.livejournal.com]

AHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

our inside jokes are the best EVER.

[ohnoscarlett.livejournal.com]

I fangirl you so hard.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

aww! :D

[fixme-in-45.livejournal.com]

oh my god,

If I almost cried at the teaser then I think i'll be in floods when you post.
I just love how you get it, it's almost like you're in on the joke, like you've witnessed these moments, took a snapshot in your brain and translated the one thing that has no translations. It's like magic. You capture them, the boys in our heads and the boys on the paper or computer screen and emalgamate them into something so real and honest and raw.... and you leave people like this ♥___♥

I don't know, you capture the friendship in such a refreshing way and you take canon and strip it to the bare bones and build their relationship into it, so that you can't see the line where real life ends and fiction begins

You are honestly such a talent, I'm starting to cringe reading other fic, because very few people can do these boys justice like you can. There is nobody I would rather give the boys over to if i had them

anyway I just thought that this, in particular deserved something more substantial than the flail of my heart. So anyway, thank you Colin =] ♥

[lolab.livejournal.com]

this... is maybe the most lovely thing anyone has ever said about my writing. thank you, so much. you made my week. i almost have tears.

<3!!!!!

[fixme-in-45.livejournal.com]

No tears!! Smiles!!
To think, that was the least fangirly and least long winded version of what I was aiming to say haha.
Just never stop doing for as long as it makes you happy. I'd kill to have a quarter of your talent.

Oh and... no, thank you, for making these boys so real and so ours in the most plausible way possible <3 *hugs*

[sweetrevenge418.livejournal.com]

I must say, my roommate got a Wii Fit, and I find myself doing yoga on it ONLY because Brendon and Ryan do yoga in PCCF.
\o/

[lolab.livejournal.com]

lol! well i hope you like it and end up doing it 'cause you actually want to. ;)

[(Anonymous)]

MEH, Coliiin, Yoga is Haaard. And I fell asleep at the end when we did the relaxy bit.

[callie-the-bear.livejournal.com]

That was me.

[bunniesontoast.livejournal.com]

i've always said that music is an entirely separate language all by itself. same with numbers.

[bunniesontoast.livejournal.com]

I think bden should play this >> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AW6QvZOJKwE&feature=related

because it is beautiful and lovely [and not just b/c i've played this.]

It's Borodin's Nocturne

[noahatthedisco.livejournal.com]

SAD!!!!

silly Ryan, can't you see what's being handed to you on a silver plater?

can't wait, bb!
<33333

[lolab.livejournal.com]

the thing is... ryan does see. he's just... ugh, he's got ~ISSUES. stupid boy.

<3!

[selectivelyurie.livejournal.com]

oh my god here comes the angst! i love it so much! GAH!

there are certain times when i'm reading fic that something will be so realistic that i stop and go, "yeah, no. they are totally madly in love with each other in real life. because this scene has totally happened before." this is one of those times, bb.

i will never not be amazed by how perfectly you capture them. ♥

[lolab.livejournal.com]

"it's already been coming." XD (you saw that interview, right?)

gah, thank you bb. i do strive for realism, so that means a lot. <3

[aspiring2be.livejournal.com]

aw!!!!!!! Chopin makes for good story.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

\o/

[drunknballerina.livejournal.com]

I CRIED AT THAT SNIPPET OHMYGOD.
*SQUISHES YOU FOREVER*

though posted before sunday, yes, yes? i am leaving on sunday oh my god help.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

no crying!

i actually think i will have it up tomorrow; i found myself on a writing rampage yesterday.

[woodwaves.livejournal.com]

hey I've just read the four chapters and loved it. I had a really hard day and your story made it 100 times better. Also, I love yoga, and therefore your yoga references.
Your writing is amazing btw, so I'm gonna read your other stories while I wait for the next chapter =)(I'm gonna add you, if you don't mind, because I don't want to miss it)
♥

[lolab.livejournal.com]

I had a really hard day and your story made it 100 times better.

i am so, so glad. i even twittered that. lol. at the end of the day, i think, that is really why i write, to hear people say things like that. <3

thank you so much.

[ivesia19.livejournal.com]

Nocturne in E Flat Major is my FAVORITE!

And Brendon blinks back a sudden prick behind his eyelids. "Not everything."???
ILY
♥

[j-plash.livejournal.com]

Nocturne in E Flat Major is amazing. I think I shall go play it now. And maybe the concerto as well, lol. This teaser makes me want Chopin XD

[chicken-cookie.livejournal.com]

How so motherfucking bittersweet/adorable, Brendon??!
Good Lord, woman boy whichever gender you are! How do you manage to write such beauteous/pitiful (the scene, not the actual writing...)/tear-jerking stories?! I do not understand it... *shakes head in wonder*

Also, just for the record, this fic actually made me somewhat interested in yoga. So much so, in fact, that I actually went to a yoga class. And it takes a hell of a lot to get me off my ass, so that's kind of incredible. Also, the fact that I may have pictured partneryoga!Ryden while I was setting up made the class all the more... err... yoga-tastic. :)

So, yeah. Just to reiterate, I'm kind of in love with this story and the way that you write it. ♥

[lolab.livejournal.com]

brendon is a precious bunny. <3

lolz, "boy" is just fine. :P thank you so much! and dude, that's awesome about yoga! makes me so happy. keep doing it; you'll really notice the benefits.

[apples]

OH BRENDON.

i am loving this, jfc~

[lolab.livejournal.com]

\o/ thanks bb!

[monamour-x.livejournal.com]

chopin!! <3333

your description of his music is exactly how i think of it for the most part. thats why i chose prelude no. 4 for that fic i wrote you for your birthday. it just fit with how brendon was feeling...exactly how you described just now. gentle, soft, romantic, sad, etc. :)

THEY TALK ABOUT THEIR DICKS.

this chapter is going to be amazing. the end. so excited. i love you. you make my bad days happy, again.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

CHOPIN.

oh, guh, that fic. you need to write more fic like that forever pls. <3333333

YES THEY DO TALK ABOUT THEIR DICKS [unrelated, so unrelated, to this scene! LOL!]

<3 ty, bb. ily.

[ley-is-eclipse.livejournal.com]

Me love :D And just to maybe help you speed the fic along I give you this video. (sorry if you have seen it before. But its epic)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Q2V73-su38&feature=channel_page

[lolab.livejournal.com]

BAHAHA YESSSSSS, I HAVE SEEN THAT VID. IT IS PRICELESS. i want panic to do one of those. oh dear god, can you even imagine??

[j-plash.livejournal.com]

Chopin is my favourite favourite favourite favourite favourite favourite favourite composer. I can play Chopin for days straight and not get sick of it. Guh. You make my life :P I had somehow half forgotten you were using Chopin for this. Which means I get to be happy about it all over again :D

Also, those last two lines made me die. I am no longer alive. I love your Brendon and Ryan too much for *breathing*. Idek. *dead*

And that is a *beautiful* description of Concerto No. 1. People do underestimate it a lot, compared to his nocturnes and preludes, because the light and shade's more obvious there, the passion's more violent...the way you've got Brendon describing the quieter depth of the concerto (and Ryan) is gorgeous. You make me wantz chapter now :P

Guh. ILY. Too much.

[lolab.livejournal.com]

YAY! he is definitely one of my favourites, yes.

um, *revives you slashily*. pls not to die. how will you read chapters and write fic? sigh.

oh, thank you. i don't know nearly as much about music as you seem to, so i was partly talking out of my ass, just from the little of chopin that i do know. so i'm glad it worked. XD

chapter soon. probably tomorrow. i went on a writing rampage yesterday and now i've only got one scene left (the now trademark late-night-conversation one; slightly epic).

<3 ily too. \o/

[starlesscities.livejournal.com]

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♥.♥

[starlesscities.livejournal.com]

after the = sign there should be hearts....
fail kayla is fail.