i can't remember the good old days
Apr. 22nd, 2009 06:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
i really don't want to sound like a bitch, but please stop asking when chapter 8 will be up. i'm sort of in a life crisis here, so fic is kind of my last priority.
redorchids is keeping me sane and working on it with me. it won't be posted until we're both satisfied and until she finishes the accompanying video. don't expect anything for at least another week, i'd say. thanks for all your responses to my last post and for the emails (i will try to respond at some point). it means a lot. again, won't be answering comments here, i'm sorry, but i'm just not up to it. i promise i'll respond to every single one when i post the last chapter. i'm just living in a daze right now and don't really have the energy.
have another teaser.
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have another teaser.
Ryan's hands are on him before he remembers it's coming. It's grown so integral to their practice that it would feel stranger without it, the intimacy of both the poses and their relationship having evolved at the same pace, but it would be pointless and stupid to forfeit one just because the other has --
Failed is the first word to break through all his repression and Brendon feels himself tremble at the thought, the wounds still fresh and gaping between them, but he doesn't flinch, he doesn't, when Ryan wraps around him, fingers trembling in Brendon's and gripping tighter just to still themselves. Ryan's breath is like burning on the tight line of his shoulder, his chest a blinding sheet of fire where it's molded to Brendon's bare back, their hips aligned and locked like it's the only thing left in the world that fits. Brendon holds on and lets go all at once, giving himself to the implicit plea for trust that's running hot across Ryan's skin, seeping into Brendon's everywhere they touch. He's been laid out for more boys than he can count, tied up and stripped down and spread open, vulnerable to the highest, but he's never felt more exposed than he does now, with Ryan his anchor, still the only one to ever make him fall and now the only one to stop him crashing.
Failed is the first word to break through all his repression and Brendon feels himself tremble at the thought, the wounds still fresh and gaping between them, but he doesn't flinch, he doesn't, when Ryan wraps around him, fingers trembling in Brendon's and gripping tighter just to still themselves. Ryan's breath is like burning on the tight line of his shoulder, his chest a blinding sheet of fire where it's molded to Brendon's bare back, their hips aligned and locked like it's the only thing left in the world that fits. Brendon holds on and lets go all at once, giving himself to the implicit plea for trust that's running hot across Ryan's skin, seeping into Brendon's everywhere they touch. He's been laid out for more boys than he can count, tied up and stripped down and spread open, vulnerable to the highest, but he's never felt more exposed than he does now, with Ryan his anchor, still the only one to ever make him fall and now the only one to stop him crashing.
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Date: 2009-04-22 10:30 pm (UTC)Take your time, bb. I hope everything gets better for you. :)
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Date: 2009-04-22 10:38 pm (UTC)(((hugs)))
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Date: 2009-04-22 10:38 pm (UTC)That teaser is amazing, as well.
<33
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Date: 2009-04-22 10:43 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-04-22 10:45 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-04-22 10:47 pm (UTC)hope things get better for you<3
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Date: 2009-04-22 10:49 pm (UTC)I've been worried about you though. ily colin, remember you can always email me.
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Date: 2009-04-22 11:02 pm (UTC)the teaser is beautiful. <3
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Date: 2009-04-22 11:06 pm (UTC)*hugs*
He's been laid out for more boys than he can count, tied up and stripped down and spread open, vulnerable to the highest, but he's never felt more exposed than he does now, with Ryan his anchor, still the only one to ever make him fall and now the only one to stop him crashing.
Nggghhhhhhhhh.
That is all. X
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Date: 2009-04-22 11:07 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-04-22 11:08 pm (UTC)If you ever need to talk or anything, seriously, feel free to email, or text, or whatever. ily <3
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Date: 2009-04-22 11:09 pm (UTC)<3
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Date: 2009-04-22 11:17 pm (UTC)You probably don't want to talk about it, but if/when you do I'm more than willing to listen.
Time heals all, or something like that. ily <3
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Date: 2009-04-23 12:50 am (UTC)really excited about ch 8 :D. it's sure to be incredible whenever you post it (and the teaser is incredible too, omg.), you're amazing.
hope you feel better :)
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Date: 2009-04-23 12:53 am (UTC)Just my two galleons ^^
♥
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Date: 2009-04-23 01:21 am (UTC)I meant to comment on your previous post, too. Like, I had a whole comment planned out (yes, that is what I do with my free time...) and everything, complete with my idea of witty-but-caring responses, but I think that I'll just comment here instead and say that I really, really hope things get better for you. You seem really cool and it's just... well, it's not fair for cool people to have sucky lives. :(
*hugs you*
Take your time on chapter 8. Nobody should hassle you about it, either. I mean, you're taking your time to write something for other people to read. They shouldn't demand that you finish faster. *grumbles at ungrateful minions*
Anyway, ♥
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Date: 2009-04-23 01:22 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-04-23 02:22 am (UTC)also, can i just say that your layout for the cabin was superb. seriously, "idk space??" you = fucking *brilliant* :P (i for one would like to think that's where they hid all of those songs they recorded but didn't keep. yeah, you're not fooling anyone boys, let us have 'em.)
nrgghhh that teaser. just. unf. it's so good omg.
their hips aligned and locked like it's the only thing left in the world that fits
that. THAT is gorgeous. ♥_♥
&you;
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Date: 2009-04-23 03:39 am (UTC)life crisis sorting >>>>>> fic.
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Date: 2009-04-23 05:04 am (UTC)Just wanted to check up on you. Don't have to worry about the whole reply thing, just letting you know.
I hope you're feeling better, and that things are settling down in a semblance of something you can be happy with.
so, much love.
Mouse
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Date: 2009-04-23 05:05 am (UTC)ily.
didn't read the teaser because, frankly, i'm just going to wait for the chapter, and i really don't care how long it takes. <3
feel better and if you want to talk, you know where to find me (hint: on the interwebs.) i feel like we haven't talked in a long time, but that is a lie.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ maybe try listening to Walking By by Something Corporate. Or since it might only succeed in making you sad, don't.
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Date: 2009-04-23 05:55 am (UTC)I hope that your wounds heal and that they don't leave scars. ♥
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Date: 2009-04-23 10:09 am (UTC)maybe that's just me, because of my sadness, or because i know that there's sadness on your part, or the music i listened to along with reading it, but.
i think it's the writing. the only word that fits in my head it gorgeous.
i've said it before, but take care of yourself.
and i'm here with a bucket (or twenty) of love, if you need it.
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Date: 2009-04-23 10:33 am (UTC)Teaser, 'tis beautiful.
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Date: 2009-04-24 06:36 am (UTC)And the teaser is BEAUTIFUL. Gah I'm gonna be so excited once it's posted along with the video! *flail* =DD
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Date: 2009-04-24 10:10 pm (UTC)