i can't remember the good old days

[behindthec]

i really don't want to sound like a bitch, but please stop asking when chapter 8 will be up. i'm sort of in a life crisis here, so fic is kind of my last priority. redorchids is keeping me sane and working on it with me. it won't be posted until we're both satisfied and until she finishes the accompanying video. don't expect anything for at least another week, i'd say. thanks for all your responses to my last post and for the emails (i will try to respond at some point). it means a lot. again, won't be answering comments here, i'm sorry, but i'm just not up to it. i promise i'll respond to every single one when i post the last chapter. i'm just living in a daze right now and don't really have the energy.

have another teaser.

Ryan's hands are on him before he remembers it's coming. It's grown so integral to their practice that it would feel stranger without it, the intimacy of both the poses and their relationship having evolved at the same pace, but it would be pointless and stupid to forfeit one just because the other has --

Failed is the first word to break through all his repression and Brendon feels himself tremble at the thought, the wounds still fresh and gaping between them, but he doesn't flinch, he doesn't, when Ryan wraps around him, fingers trembling in Brendon's and gripping tighter just to still themselves. Ryan's breath is like burning on the tight line of his shoulder, his chest a blinding sheet of fire where it's molded to Brendon's bare back, their hips aligned and locked like it's the only thing left in the world that fits. Brendon holds on and lets go all at once, giving himself to the implicit plea for trust that's running hot across Ryan's skin, seeping into Brendon's everywhere they touch. He's been laid out for more boys than he can count, tied up and stripped down and spread open, vulnerable to the highest, but he's never felt more exposed than he does now, with Ryan his anchor, still the only one to ever make him fall and now the only one to stop him crashing.

Comments

[beachan18.livejournal.com]

<3

Take your time, bb. I hope everything gets better for you. :)

[j-plash.livejournal.com]

People harassing you should piss off. Will read the teaser (and, lol, the 2nd half of ch7) when I'm in a better mood to wildly compliment you about it :) Political mindsets are no good for fic reading (or writing), lol.

(((hugs)))

[starlesscities.livejournal.com]

Take your time, love.
That teaser is amazing, as well.
<33

[aj-angel3000.livejournal.com]

okay so i think i'm the one who did the nagging. *hides and really feels very bad* sorry colin T_T

[lolab.livejournal.com]

no it's okay, lots of people have been doing it. i know i usually answer the "when will you post" question with no problem, but lately i'm just stressed. no worries. <3

[tailover5.livejournal.com]

You don't sound like a bitch. iI don't blame you for not getting chapter 8 up and I'm sure it'll be fantastic when you do, especially after reading the teaser that you were nice enough to give us (:

hope things get better for you<3

[noahatthedisco.livejournal.com]

oh god, I would NEVER bug you for this.
I've been worried about you though. ily colin, remember you can always email me.

[bunniesontoast.livejournal.com]

sucks that people are bugging you, bb. ♥

the teaser is beautiful. <3

[alphabetatoast.livejournal.com]

Take as long as you need bb. People shouldn't be pressing you - and know that we know that rl is of course your only concern atm.
*hugs*

He's been laid out for more boys than he can count, tied up and stripped down and spread open, vulnerable to the highest, but he's never felt more exposed than he does now, with Ryan his anchor, still the only one to ever make him fall and now the only one to stop him crashing.

Nggghhhhhhhhh.



That is all. X

[lady-writes.livejournal.com]

feel better soon <3 fic can wait

[the-randomist.livejournal.com]

You don't sound like a bitch. Take as much time as you need, and don't worry about it. I don't give a fuck it that means it'll be two months before the end of pccf, I just want you to be okay. You are more important than any fic, no matter how epic. ♥
If you ever need to talk or anything, seriously, feel free to email, or text, or whatever. ily <3

[the-randomist.livejournal.com]

Also, teaser=nom.
<3

[kayxluvsxcoffee.livejournal.com]

Beautiful teaser dude. Take your time, I could wait another year for 8 if it meant you were okay.

You probably don't want to talk about it, but if/when you do I'm more than willing to listen.

Time heals all, or something like that. ily <3

[stelaclaudi.livejournal.com]

dude, take your time. you shouldn't have to feel stressed or anything about anything rn.

really excited about ch 8 :D. it's sure to be incredible whenever you post it (and the teaser is incredible too, omg.), you're amazing.
hope you feel better :)

[miarae.livejournal.com]

...People actually ask you that? I think I've officially lost faith in all mankind now. Take as much time as you need bb, and don't let anyone rush you. Real life will ALWAYS take priority over anything else, and this place should be your safe haven, not a place where people bug you more.

Just my two galleons ^^

♥

[chicken-cookie.livejournal.com]

Finish it when you feel up to it, bb. Seriously, whenever I'm like, "FINISH IT NAO, COLIN, OR PERISH!", I'm joking. *is hoping that I didn't piss you off*

I meant to comment on your previous post, too. Like, I had a whole comment planned out (yes, that is what I do with my free time...) and everything, complete with my idea of witty-but-caring responses, but I think that I'll just comment here instead and say that I really, really hope things get better for you. You seem really cool and it's just... well, it's not fair for cool people to have sucky lives. :(

*hugs you*

Take your time on chapter 8. Nobody should hassle you about it, either. I mean, you're taking your time to write something for other people to read. They shouldn't demand that you finish faster. *grumbles at ungrateful minions*

Anyway, ♥

[chicken-cookie.livejournal.com]

Also: teaser, omg! *sqee*

[selectivelyurie.livejournal.com]

don't fret over posting; to be honest, i'm glad you're taking time out for yourself. you need it, bb :*

also, can i just say that your layout for the cabin was superb. seriously, "idk space??" you = fucking *brilliant* :P (i for one would like to think that's where they hid all of those songs they recorded but didn't keep. yeah, you're not fooling anyone boys, let us have 'em.)

nrgghhh that teaser. just. unf. it's so good omg.
their hips aligned and locked like it's the only thing left in the world that fits
that. THAT is gorgeous. ♥_♥

&you;

[candiedpeaches.livejournal.com]

are people really asking you when chapter 8 is going to be up? that kind of sounds really dickish. i mean i know they're not trying to be rude but i'm just thinking. unless they don't know. but i mean really...?

life crisis sorting >>>>>> fic.

[prosaicpuppetry.livejournal.com]

Hey, Colin.
Just wanted to check up on you. Don't have to worry about the whole reply thing, just letting you know.
I hope you're feeling better, and that things are settling down in a semblance of something you can be happy with.

so, much love.

Mouse

[stereotypeloser.livejournal.com]

i am slightly intoxicated (because, as my friend pointed out, wednesday is almost thursday, which is almost friday, which means it's BASICALLY the weekend), but allow me to say this:

ily.

didn't read the teaser because, frankly, i'm just going to wait for the chapter, and i really don't care how long it takes. <3
feel better and if you want to talk, you know where to find me (hint: on the interwebs.) i feel like we haven't talked in a long time, but that is a lie.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ maybe try listening to Walking By by Something Corporate. Or since it might only succeed in making you sad, don't.

[camatie.livejournal.com]

Take as long as you need Colin. I know I don't mind waiting, as long as you feel better. :)

I hope that your wounds heal and that they don't leave scars. ♥

[drunknballerina.livejournal.com]

the teaser is gorgeous and speaks of such unbearable sadness that it makes my heart ache.
maybe that's just me, because of my sadness, or because i know that there's sadness on your part, or the music i listened to along with reading it, but.
i think it's the writing. the only word that fits in my head it gorgeous.

i've said it before, but take care of yourself.
and i'm here with a bucket (or twenty) of love, if you need it.

[ginsatonic.livejournal.com]

First off. Take as much time as you need. I know you will but you need to know that that is okay. Of course it is. You just look after yourself and don't let anyone get to you, if they do, then feel free to bitch about it as much as you want. Whatever makes things better for you is good with me.

Teaser, 'tis beautiful.

[o-nyx-o.livejournal.com]

Take all the time that you need. Take care of yourself. Treat yourself to something nice. Take a break from life. You need it. Maybe you can escape to Cali and stalk the boys for real!!!! I know that you ask for a lot of porn but since I can't write you porn. I'll write you cute drabble fluff (with a touch of angst?). Is that okay? =D I'll send it through email or something.

And the teaser is BEAUTIFUL. Gah I'm gonna be so excited once it's posted along with the video! *flail* =DD

[lolab.livejournal.com]

<3 thank you. ahah, i would love to go to cali. and now ryan's twitters have made it super easy to find his house. :P i had a great time at the FOB show last night, though, so i think i'll be okay. :)